Yes, it’s true that when you look at me, you may see fear, you may see worry, you may see stress, you may even see me cry, but those emotions are part of what it means to be human. And I am, after all, only human. As a human, I am not ashamed of those emotions because I have learned that sometimes it is necessary to shatter the present to build a stronger tomorrow.
My mind races with worry and uncertainty, yet my face presents a smile for the world to see. So many to talk to, yet I feel no one hears me. So many to walk with, yet I feel I am on the journey alone. I am only human, and I have human fears and worries; the weight of it all threatens to crush my spirit. But despite all this, I continue to move forward with the belief that the Lord is guiding, and watching over me. That He sees my fears and worries, but he knows that in my heart I do not doubt him and that when the time is right, He will see fit to rain down bountiful blessings upon me and remove all my fears and worries, and for that, I will be eternally grateful to Him.
Today I found my mind racing with worry about something that I am dealing with. Then I got up from my desk to go to the men’s room (TMI, I know) and did so without grabbing my cane. On the way back, I noticed no limp, no stagger, almost like nothing ever was wrong. Not bad I thought I am getting so much stronger every day, and that’s when my inner Keanu Reeves took over. WHOA! I thought that’s it exactly; I’m getting stronger every day. When did I start getting stronger? When I put my faith in the Lord and began doing things like walking every day and riding the exercise bike when I quit worrying about will I ever walk like before? That’s when I started getting stronger.
So why am I letting worry consume me now?
Look what the Lord has already done for me.
Look at all I have to be grateful for.
I only need to keep my faith in the Lord and keep working on a solution because worry can only fill my soul with fear. But faith in the Lord and action on my part will lead me to the successful outcome I seek. In this, I do not doubt because, with Him, nothing is impossible.
Jeremiah 17:7-8 New International Version (NIV)
7 “But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”
I do not fret about my status in life.
I have cast away my fears of failure.
I do not allow self-doubt to consume me.
I have been relieved of all my worry.
What if I told you all of this is because:
I give my heart and soul unconditionally to the Lord.
I believe that through my faith, the Lord forgives me of my sin and loves me unconditionally in return.
I am strengthened in the knowledge that I do not walk alone on this journey that He is guiding me and protecting me each step of the way.
I believe that with the Lord, all things are possible.
I am encouraged in the knowledge that through my prayers, praise, and faith in Him. The Lord will rain down blessings upon me.
What if I told you that by setting aside your pride and allowing the spirit of the Lord to consume you that you too could be freed of self-doubt, worry, and the pursuit of earthly riches. Would you? Could you?