Each day I awake anxious to continue my conversation with you, to thank you for the chance to walk another day upon the Earth. I am encouraged in the belief that no matter where the day shall take me I never walk alone. Each day my life is little more enriched by the knowledge you are my savior and my soul burns with the light of a thousand lights knowing that because of my faith in you and your love for me nothing is impossible. I endeavor to let nothing or no one come between me and my faith. I am reassured in the belief that as I continue to give you praise and strengthen my faith in you nothing can diminish your love for me. I revel in the knowledge that I need not worry about earthly problems because you help carry my load and in your ultimate wisdom will bestow on to me the strength and courage to overcome. I am fortunate enough to have found you for you are truly my best friend and my strongest ally and it is for that reason that I am truly blessed.
Early morning the sun hasn’t even come up yet here I am wide awake. You lay next to me your beauty evident even as you sleep. I wonder if you know you saved my soul? Before you I was bitter, had given up on love. I swore I would never allow anyone to make me feel the way I felt when my last relationship ended. Not only had my world been shaken by the break up but my heart had been stolen. Not shattered into pieces but gone, stolen by someone I trusted loved me as I loved them. Then you walked into my life, your first smile a building block for my new heart, a wrecking ball to the wall that my bitterness has built up. Even though I never said it you seemingly could sense my apprehension but that never deterred you. You simply let the moments be the moments and as time went on I let you in more and more. Then one day you smiled and like the grinch my heart that you had been building since that first smile grew three sizes that day. And then – the true meaning of love came through, and I found the strength of *ten* men plus two! Today my heart is once again open to love but only to your love. You brought me back, you saved my soul, made me believe in love again. Than you my love sleep well.
It was another tiring work day followed by an equally brutal commute but as I stared at the door to my apartment searching for my house keys I was overcome with a sense of happiness. Was the day that rough that the mere sight of my doorway could make me so happy. Then my mind said of course not, this day was no more difficult than hundreds of days before it. You’re happy to be standing in front of this door because she’s on the other side of this door. She’s the reason that this door isn’t just a door to an apartment anymore it’s a door to a home. It’s a door you think about opening all day long because you can’t wait to see, embrace, kiss her again. It’s a door to your heart. With that realization I turned the key and opened the door and smiled when I saw her standing there on the other side. Welcome home I thought to myself welcome home.
I looked across the crowded room and saw her. She was in the middle of a conversation, the usual party small talk, laughing and smiling with the others around her. I knew who she was having seen her around the office before. I was amazed at how beautiful she was yet how modest she seemed to be. I mean let’s be real the beautiful people know they’re beautiful. But in her case it was like she didn’t know, didn’t care or both. But it wasn’t just her beauty that drew me to her, she had a reputation as being one of the brightest of the bright and was also well known as a fighter who was unafraid to think big and push the company to do the same. Any man would be lucky if she even looked their way and there she was twenty feet away from me, which may as well have been twenty miles. I’ll admit she intimidated me. Then she turned and looked my way and I could swear she smiled, not a huge smile just a slight little smile aimed in my direction as if it was meant for only me to notice. I thought to myself did I just imagine that or did she really just smile at me? The night went on and I couldn’t shake that little smile it was all I could think of. So when she was finally all alone I thought why not and summoned the courage from deep down within me and started walking in her direction to introduce myself. I walked with a purpose, confident and self assured, I mean she’s special but I’m no slouch I’m a pretty good catch myself, but that look of confidence was on the outside inside I was shaking like a child off to their first day of preschool saying goodbye to their mother for the first time. As I drew near she suddenly turned and looked in my direction and there it was again that little smile. Before I could utter a word she said hello and our eyes met. Suddenly all my nerves seem to settle down it was like I had known this woman all my life. Hello I said back and we spend the rest of the evening talking and laughing and every so often she would look right in my eye and flash that little smile. Now I knew it wasn’t my imagination that little smile was meant for me and only me. It was as if she had been waiting to flash that little smile her whole life. It was as if we were connected. You wait your whole life to find someone like this, someone you share an instant connection with, your soulmate. You may not always see eye to eye, you’re going to have up and downs but you knew from the minute you met that none of that would matter because you were destined to be in the same place at the same time. You were destined to find each other, destined to find your soulmate and on this night I found mine behind that little smile.
I check my phone every few minutes for your text
I listen to songs the remind me of you
I close my eyes and I see your smile
I miss you every minute you are away
You have awaken my soul
You have given me strength
You have opened my heart to the joy of true love
You bring me true happiness
I count the minutes until I see you again
I can’t wait for when I can hold you again
You are my everything
I love you