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Given a next life I realize faith is my strongest ally

Oracle: But you already know what I’m going to tell you.
Neo: I’m not The One…..
Oracle: Sorry, kid. You got the gift, but it looks like you’re waiting for something…
Neo: What?
Oracle: Your next life maybe, who knows?

About a month and a half ago my heart stopped for what I was told was 30 minutes. Doctors told my family it doesn’t look good, that if I did survive brain damage was likely. Yet I was told the team continued to work to bring me back long past the time they would normally work on someone, thankfully I had that AR always resuscitate order LOL. Less than a week later after being heavily sedated I was awake and alert with no brain damage.  Some hospital workers and the hospital chaplain started calling me miracle man. Since that time I have been in the hospital recovering unable to walk or sit up as my core/trunk muscles had atrophied. Having to rely on others to clean you after going to the bathroom on a bedpan is a humbling experience. Depression began to set in. Then with the help of family and friends I began to realize their was no need to be depressed rather I should celebrate this “next life” that I had been granted.  That I had the gift and was given this new chance to realize my destiny.

“I am a Jedi. I’m one with the Force, and the Force will guide me.”

“For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is.”

“Close your eyes. Feel it. The light…it’s always been there. It will guide you.”

“Now I know there is something strong than fear — far stronger. The Force.”

Having come to the realization that I was given this second chance to realize my destiny I needed to understand how I could actually begin to accomplish it. First I needed to heal myself physically I needed to get stronger.  Thoughts of pumping my body full of pills and simply doing the exercises the therapists were showing me would accomplish this were flawed as my progress was minimal. But then what night I had a breakthrough in my thinking I came to understand that to heal physically and mentally I needed to tap into my belief in myself and my faith in the Lord. As with the fictional Force I understood that the Lord is a powerful ally and has always been there I simply needed to close my eyes, listen closely, feel his healing power and allow him to guide me in my recovery. Once I became one with the Lord I knew nothing would be impossible.

I have subsequently been transferred to a rehabilitation center and each day I close my eyes and call on the Lord to give me the strength to move forward in my rehab to get stronger each day. I visualize that he is wrapping me in a bright white light and that his healing hand is touching my soul, giving me the belief that I have it within me to overcome the physical issues before me that I am able sit up, stand up and walk. As each day goes by I have seen myself gaining strength. I am able to pull myself up, I am able stand I am able to walk.

I am still searching for what my ultimate purpose is. What my “gift” is. Why have I been given this next life. Who knows maybe it as simple as sharing my story of faith and belief to help others find theirs. Whatever it may be I do believe now that in this next life I have been blessed with the Lord is guiding me and with the Lord by my side nothing is impossible.

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Dreams – The roadmap to greatness

Dreams are the roadmap to greatness. You will never reach your full potential without dreaming of the possibilities that you can aspire to achieve. The power of dreams manifest themselves in a mind set that asks what if, that casts away fears of failure. Dreams set the goals, spur you to action, keep you focused and moving forward. Just imagine a life without dreams, living day to day existing only to exist. No goals to aspire to, no desire to grow, a life defined by the routine safety of the known at the expense of reaching for opportunities in the unknown. Is this really the life you want? Of course not, you want to spread your wings and reach your full potential and the only way to that is to follow your dreams.

Different? Of course I am – I was born to stand out

Of course I seem strange to you. Yes I am different. Because I was created to stand out from everyone else. I was created to be special. Neither you nor anyone else will ever be able to define me because I refuse to live by your definition of who I am or what I can accomplish. My potential is unlimited and my desire to reach it boundless. I will not be constrained by fear of failure I will not over indulge in success I will simply endeavor each day to be better than I was the day before.

Cast away your self doubt

To paraphrase George R.R. Martin you wear your self doubt like a suit of armor. You think it keeps you safe from failure but all it does is weigh you down and make it impossible to grow. You must not let your fears rule you, drive you to inaction. They must be faced as you will gain strength, and confidence with every experience where you have looked fear in the face. Once your of failure is conquered you can cast away that self doubt suit of armor and move forward freely in the direction of your dreams.

Self doubt does not protect you from failure but from your chances of success.

You think your self doubt protects you, shields you from the unknown, the possibilities of failure. You believe your self doubt has served you well. You do not call it self doubt you call it practical and smart decision making. But deep down you realize that your self doubt has limited your potential. Your life can best be described as humdrum, you are paralyzed to step out of the box and seize the opportunities presented to you for fear of failure   There is a part of you that craves more but your self doubt or as you would say your smart and practical decision making has convinced you to accept the status quo. After all you tell yourself if you march to the beat of the drummer and don’t rock the boat everything will be fine. You no longer grow and growth is paramount to a person’s long term happiness in themselves.  Fortunately you are not bound by self doubt you can overcome it.  The first step is taking a step back and admitting that you have it. Nothing can be overcome unless you believe it is there in the first place.  Once you have acknowledged self doubt you define yourself in the positive. Defining yourself in a positive light rather that relying on the opinions of others will help you build self worth. Having a healthy self worth means you look inward not outward for validation never having to question if others think you can accomplish something but knowing you can accomplish it. Embrace the opportunities presented to you with the full knowledge that you may fail. Accept that failure is but a building block of success providing you with valuable lessons. Finally build on your small successes, drink them in no matter how small they may be, as they will help your self confidence evolve. Self confidence is like the proverbial snowball rolling down hill, except your self confidence will be headed the other way, the more you achieve now the greater it becomes later. Once you have decided to step out of the box you are currently in and grab hold of your future follow these steps to cast away your self doubt and to unleash the potential that lives within you.

 

 

 

The pursuit of perfection

In life it is possible to meticulously plan and execute something to perfection and still not reach the desired result. Is that a failure? Should we throw our hands up and walk away from future opportunities convinced we simply are not meant to succeed? Of course not. How we deal with failure is as important as how we deal with success. We should strive for perfection with the understanding that the pursuit is just as important as reaching the goal. The pursuit is a chance for us to learn, change and grow molding us into into a better person than we were before it.

The dreams of childhood

We had no choice when we were conceived but once life is given to us we are given the choice of if we truly want to live it to its fullest. For too many of us life slowly devolves from the dreams of childhood to the commonplace existence of adulthood.  Many of us have made the conscious decision not to live our lives but to simply exist within the confines of society’s definition of who and what we should be. Afraid to be who we are for fear of others reactions to it. But it is true that if we accept this type of existence we cease to grow and the entire point of living is to grow each day, to reach for and cultivate the potential that resides within each of us. The question we must ask ourselves is do we want to grow, do we still believe in those childhood dreams. If we answer honestly we would say yes we want those dreams that were extinguished as we entered adulthood.  Dreams that were replaced by the so called practical mindset favored by the masses. The same masses who drudge their way through a colorless existence. But we are not meant to live a colorless existence. Our lives are meant to be represented by the full spectrum of color. But if we continue being honest with ourselves we would have to admit that many of us are afraid to step out of the box.  So now the unclear question is how do we get there? How do we reject society’s image of what we want to be? It is not an easy answer it requires an unwavering belief in one self and abilities. The fearlessness to take that step off the cliff and believe you will fly when most will tell you man is not meant to fly. But what you must understand is those who tell you can’t fly neither have the self confidence to believe they can or the fearlessness to try. It is your belief in yourself that will not only allow you to fly but soar with eagles. Gone will be the colorless mundane of a life you were drudging through replaced by a life filled with vibrant colors we seek and new possibilities every day.