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Something’s Missing

The aroma of french vanilla wafted from my coffee mug, and the sound of raindrops dancing on my window filled the air.  It’s another lazy Saturday morning, and I have so much to be thankful for in these turbulent times.  My health, job, home, and of course, my family and friends. Yet I feel something is missing—that special person to share my life with, the sound of children laughing.  Having been blessed with so much, just the thought of feeling incomplete makes me uncomfortable.  Who am I to feel incomplete when so many in the world today have so much less and are suffering? As a result, I keep the feeling of loneliness deep inside, never letting anyone know my true feelings.  However, on mornings like this, keeping my emotions trapped inside me can prove to be incredibly difficult.  As I sit sipping on my coffee and look forlornly out the window at the raindrops dancing on my windows, my mind pushes aside all I have been blessed with and focusses on my feelings of solitude.  I am determined to see my glass as half full, but I cannot lie; it is often difficult.  If only I had the strength to share my feelings, not be concerned with others’ judgment, to not be so guilt-ridden for feeling this way.  If only I weren’t so good at hiding my emotions, perhaps someone would see the tears my smile hides and ask what’s wrong?  I take the last sip of my coffee, sigh, and vow to myself not to let this get the best of me, to concentrate only on that which brings me happiness.  So why do I feel so sad?

It wasn’t supposed to be this way

The alarm clock rings and I clumsily reach for the snooze button before turning over and reaching for you, sadly you’re not there.

It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

With your captivating smile and breathtaking eyes, you were always going to be there.  Now I long to hear your voice say good morning my love just one more time. Sadly, that is reserved for another one now.

It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

I wonder do you smile at him the way you smiled at me?  Does he, could he, ever love you the way I did? Does his touch, his kiss make you feel the way mine once did and will either of our mornings be same ever again? Sadly, we’ll never know. 

It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

We were going to be forever, no expiration date. Destined from the very first kiss, an electricity between us so powerful that when we walked in a room they would all stop and stare, point and yell – look at them you know they’re truly in love. Sadly, all that is gone.

it wasn’t supposed to be this way

Did I take it all for granted? Should I have told you I loved you one more time? Should I have walked away from that last argument? Foolishly I thought our love was powerful enough that it was all we needed, that no man could ever steal you from me, could ever capture your heart the way I did. But now you’re gone. Sadly, I guess I was wrong.

It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

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Lost love

They say time heals all wounds, but time apart from you only grows more painful every day
I long to hear your voice
see your smile
Hold you in my arms
Caress your skin
Kiss your lips
Hold your body next to mine
Given one more chance, I know I would make it right. Be the partner you so deserves, be the man you desire. If you choose to walk away, my heart would be lost forever