They say I haven’t been the same since you left; maybe they’re right. I’m not going to lie; I never stopped loving you; feelings don’t just disappear. They fade slowly over time, and even when you think they’re gone, something reminds you that a little love remains even if it’s buried deep within your heart. You have moved on, and someone else has your heart now, and I understand why you left, but there will always be that bond between us. You can’t deny that, and yes, I’m different since you left, but in a good way, I’m a better man today because you showed me how to open my heart and truly let someone in to share my deepest emotions. I’m a wiser and better man than before I met you, and even though we’ve moved on, you’ll always hold a special place in my heart, and for that, I’m eternally grateful.
Listen to the beat of my heart; it beats because of and only for you. You came along when it was in a dark and lonely place, broken and scattered in a million pieces. But you reached into the dark when no one else would and picked it up, shined a light onto it, and put it back together. You gave it a reason to wake each day and not be afraid to open up to the world again. Because of you, it knows how to love again, and for that, I am eternally grateful. My heart beats because of and only for you.
There’s a chill in the air tonight, and my bed feels especially chilly because you’re not here with me. It’s true, I still think about you, and how we would cuddle on nights like this, talking and laughing. The look in your eyes warming me like a summer night. There was never anyone like you before, and while there have been others, there has never been anyone like you since. The others all had qualities that made them unique, and though I know I shouldn’t have, when I compared them to you, they could never quite measure up to you. Each kiss only reminded me of the kisses we shared. Each smile only made me long for yours that much more. I suppose the thought of you and what we had will always haunt me. My heart still belongs to you. If that is a good or bad thing, I don’t know, but I know it is true.
Patti Austin and James Ingram once asked in song:
How do you keep the music playing?
How do you make it last?
How do you keep the song from fading Too fast?
How do you lose yourself to someone And never lose your way?
How do you not run out of new things To say?
And since you know we’re always changing How can it be the same?
I may have lost myself to you but in doing so I found my way.
I’ll never run out of new things to say because your intelligence and beauty inspire me.
I may always be changing but my love for you is as strong as the day we shared our very first kiss.
After all this time we are still lovers, still best friends, and our love for each other grow stronger every day
Because of this I have no worries, no concerns that our music will ever end.
It’s been a long road and along the way I have had many experiences that have shaped the very essence of who I am. But it wasn’t until you walked into my life that I could truly say for the first time I saw clearly what my life was meant for. Today I stand here with you ready to walk a new path in my life. As with any path there will be unknowns and obstacles ahead. But knowing you will be walking the path with me I have no fear, because I have no doubt our love build on trust and mutual respect will carry us through any obstacle we may face.
I promise you that you will always be:
My partner who I walk beside the rest of your life.
My best friend who I will not only listen to but hear
My soulmate who my heart will always beat in unison with.
I say to the world that when I:
Hold your hand.
Hear your voice,
See your smile,
Look into your eyes,
I know a love that I did not think was possible.
It is true that when we are apart I count the minutes until I see you again, until I can hold you in my arms again. Why? Because you and only you:
Bring me happiness
Have awaken my soul
Have given me strength
Are my partner
Are my best friend
Are my soul mate
Are my everything
I love you
Because of you, I want to be the man that
Opens your door;
Cooks your dinner;
Gives you flowers just because;
Because of you, I want to be the man that
takes the time to understand you truly;
Supports and encourages you;
Fulfills your wants and desires.
Because of you, I want to be the man that
Is a strong shoulder for you to lean on;
It is a sounding board for you to vent to;
Never stop telling you I love with my words;
Never stop showing you I love you with my actions;
Leaves you lost in every kiss and moment of passion. A kiss so powerful it says I will always love you, and I will never leave your side.
Because of you, I want to be that man.
Days weeks months, that’s how long I told the world I didn’t even think about you anymore. But that was a lie, and whenever I let my guard down, you were there in my memories. Reminding me of the time, we walked down that street, ate at that restaurant, listened to that song, or saw that movie. I would do my best to push you out, but I couldn’t; the memory of us and what we were was too strong, and it hurt, it hurt a lot.
There have been others since you; they’ve come and gone, none lasted for very long. I would ask myself why? Have I subconsciously compared them to you? Was I too protective of my heart? Was I building a wall around it, so no one could ever walk away from it and break it again? The truth is I was doing all those things and more.
But time has a funny way of healing you. For me, it was a daily grind, and I came to realize that trying to forget someone you loved as much as I loved you is… well, it’s impossible. But I got a little stronger each day, and slowly I began to remember who I was before you, and I started picking up the pieces. Slowly and meticulously, I put them back together. The scar where you once resided in my heart still a vivid reminder of us. But not a symbol of pain anymore.
Today I’m strong enough to remember the good and bad and the love we shared. The thought of you is no longer painful, no longer an obstacle to my moving forward. Now when I remember what we once had, it brings a smile to my face. I guess that is because deep down, there will always be that special place you occupy in my heart, and I’m okay with that because I’m strong enough to remember you now.
It was a long workday followed by an unusually brutal commute. Exhausted I stood in front of my door and suddenly I was overcome with a sense of happiness. Happy to be home? No, that’s not it. Sure this day was rough but no more than hundreds of days before it. So, what was it? I know, it was because on the other side of the door she was there. Ever since she’s been on the other side of the door it wasn’t just a door, it’s the door to a home, a door I looked forward to opening all day. An ordinary door she had transformed into a door to my heart. It was with that realization I turned the key and opened the door and there she stood and I knew I was home.
That very first kiss, I’ll always remember that very first kiss.
It was unlike any kiss I had before, a moment of passion so powerful it stirred my soul and electricity so intense that it shook my body. That night it wasn’t just our lips that touched but also our souls.
I always knew you were different, that there was something special about you. Just the thought of you made sweat pour from my pores, my heart beat faster, and my emotions grow stronger. Never had I felt this way before, and to be honest, at first, I didn’t know what to do with it.
There you were every waking moment, even when you weren’t there occupying every inch of my heart and my soul. What is this hold you have over me, I wondered? Was this just some grown-up schoolyard crush? No, it couldn’t be; this was so much more. Then I kissed you for the very first time, and it all became so clear you weren’t just another; you were my soulmate.
Now some scoff at the notion of soulmates, no such thing they say, and some believe but say don’t waste your time looking because you can spend your whole life and never find them. But I need to search no more because with that very first kiss I had found mine.
I wonder, did a little bit of you transfer to me and a little bit of me transfer to you with that very first kiss? I think it must be because no matter where we are or how far apart we may be, we’re never truly alone. We’re always with each other. With that very first kiss, we gave each other the keys to our hearts and souls, and here we are years later, still holding on to them.
Let others wonder if it’s true because I know that it is with that very first kiss that a love affair began and my soulmate did I find.
Lately you’ve been distant.
I know something bothering you, but I can only guess because you won’t let me in.
Do you worry how I’ll react if you do?
Maybe it’s because you worried how he would react.
Do you feel you’ll be a burden to me if you do?
Maybe it’s because he made you feel that way.
Do you think I won’t listen if you do?
Maybe it’s because he never listened.
Do you think I just won’t care?
Maybe it’s because he never did.
Full disclosure, there will be times that I won’t fully understand what you are going through
But I’ll always try.
There will be times I won’t agree with you.
But I’ll never judge you.
There will be times l will offer you a shoulder to cry on.
But I’ll never take that to mean you’re weak.
You and I are partners. You’re my lover and my best friend. No, I am not him, not today, not tomorrow, not on my worst day.