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Because of You

Because of you I want to be the man that

Opens your door.
Cooks your dinner.
Gives you flowers just because.

Because of you I want to be the man that

Takes the time to truly understand you.
Supports and encourages you.
Fulfills your wants and desires.

Because of you I want to be the man that

Is a strong shoulder for you to lean on.
Is a sounding board for you to vent to.

Because of you I want to be the man that

Never stop telling you I love with my words.
Never stop showing you I love her with my actions.

Because of you I want to be the man that

With every kiss leave you lost in the moment of passion so powerful it says I will always love you and I will never leave your side.

Because of you I want to be that man.Be the man

Thank You For Walking Away

As I look back now I guess I owe you an apology. An apology for being so mad when you turned and walked away from us. What I really should have been was thankful.

Confused? Don’t be, it simple really.

You see I committed my heart to you, assumed you really meant it when you said you loved me, and that we would always be together. That day you left I can’t lie it hurt, hurt like hell. Would I be wrong to say you never really loved me? Maybe, I don’t know, I guess in your own way you thought you did. But the truth for me is that I would have been cheating myself if I had settled for you.

Why?

Well it’s been some time since that day you walked away, and I have had time to reflect and heal and out of that came this realization; I’m a catch. Now maybe you couldn’t see it but trust me when I tell you others do.

You see I recognize now that I’m not that perfect man you were looking for, if he even exists. But what I am is a man who will always be there for the one I love.  A man who will always respect and treat my woman like a queen and the woman that I have committed my heart to now appreciates that and loves me for who I am. She is accepting of me for me, imperfections and all, just as I am of her. We do this because we realize that a relationship is seldom two perfect people finding each other, it’s two imperfect people finding each other and are willing to work together to make each other better. I suspect one day you’ll find someone new and fool them until you can’t. But I wish you only happiness, like everyone you deserve to be happy. Sadly, though I suspect you’ll never find that happiness until you learn what true love is, hopefully one day you will. In the meantime good luck and thank you again for walking away.

Have you ever had a love that you were so sure was real? What if it wasn’t

You looked at me and asked, had I ever had a love that I was sure was real? What if it wasn’t? What if the other person only said they loved you? How would you know the difference between true love and just words?

I was puzzled but you continued. When love was first conceived you said it was pure, it never gave up, never lost faith, was always hopeful and endured through every circumstance. It was that pure love that first bonded together couples. But over time people corrupted it, used it for their own gains and selfish purposes. They told others they loved them when in fact they never did. Those who have been hurt and allowed that experience to remain with them will never be free to experience true love again.  But it has been said that true love will return to those who open their hearts to it and there are those of us who have spent our entire lives looking for it. Then you took my hand and said when I first saw you I knew immediately. Knew what I asked? That you were the one you said. I was still bitter and guarded from the last one, afraid to truly commit, but you waited patiently. You said you did so because you believe that the search for true love was over for both of us.

I looked at you and asked what are you trying to tell me that I can protect my heart from being hurt again? No, you said with a smile when I’m ready to commit my heart to you I won’t have to.

Never Having To Ask

You know what I love about us? It’s never having to ask if you love me.  Now that’s true love.  With others I had to ask and while they would say of course I do. Did they really? Maybe they thought they did, but it wasn’t true love. It wasn’t that love you search your whole life for and you’re lucky if you find it.

With you I never had to ask if you would be there always. With others I had to. You know why?  Because I couldn’t really be sure.  And when a little rain fell you know what?  They weren’t.

I know what we have without having to ask because every minute of every day your actions make it crystal clear, tomorrow and every tomorrow after that rain or shine, good or bad when I wake your face will be the first one I see.

What about those who have to ask? I would say they shouldn’t.  They should simply enjoy the moment. But they should also understand that the person they’re with at that moment is only that, a person they’re with at that moment, nothing more nothing less. But that’s cool, everyone can’t have what we have.  True love is not meant to be found in every relationship, but every relationship can bring happiness. I Just hope they treat each relationship in their heart and in their mind accordingly and at the end of the day they’ll be alright   Who knows maybe they’ll get lucky enough to find what we have. 

never ask

THAT WAS THEN, THIS IS NOW

It’s in the mornings when I can still feel you lying next to me, I reach out to pull you closer, because when you were in my arms nothing else mattered. But mornings are nothing more than a dream now and you’re not here and you don’t love me anymore.

You looked right in my eyes and told me you loved me, that you wanted to grow old with me. I trusted you with my heart and you broke it. You made me bitter and unwilling to open my heart to anyone for fear of getting hurt again.

My friends, family and co-workers would tell me to move on. Get back out there they would say. It could be worst you could be (fill in the blank) they would say.  I knew all of this and I certainly didn’t wake up every day and decide today is yet another day to be miserable. I wanted to be the happy person they knew again. But I was hurting and trying to find my way back home, but for some of us the road is longer than the rest.

As I traveled the road back I tried to put on a brave face I would tell the world there are plenty of fish in the sea, I’m better off without you, this is for the best I’ll find someone who truly loves me. But I didn’t believe it you were my fish and I wanted you back. The hardest part of it all is that I believed you truly loved me and deep down, the thing I didn’t want to admit, I still wanted to believe that you did.

I would walk down the street mesmerized by couples holding hands, I could only think about your hand in mine and each time I thought it I broke inside a little bit more. I started to notice the people in restaurants eating alone, sitting on the park benches by themselves and even if they weren’t, and they probably weren’t, I thought they were depressed and lonely and then I thought my goodness that’s me. When I would get home, I would sit down and start crying, all the emotion that I had buried all day, all the questions I had rushing in. How could you go from asking me to promise I would never leave you to leaving me in a matter of days? Why were you so unwilling to try and work it out? How did we go from planning a life together to nothing in a blink of an eye? What’s wrong with me, other couples have problems greater than ours were yet they find a way to work it out, but you just walked away from me. Why?

BUT ALL THAT WAS THEN, THIS IS NOW

I traveled the long road of despair, depression, self-doubts, and bitterness and with the help of family, friends, and co-workers I reemerged the person I was before you but somehow better.  The journey was difficult, oh was it difficult, but it was worth it. I realized that sometimes you must look despair squarely in the eye so that you can find yourself. Now I understand the truth and that is while you made me happy you were not the key to my happiness.  I realized that while I was looking for love it was always all around me from my family, friends, and co-workers but most importantly with-in myself. Gone was my fear of falling in love again because I may get hurt and in its place was the resolve to find the person with intellect, beauty, and the heart to love me as much as I love her. The woman to grow old with.

Today I no longer wonder what’s wrong with me but understand that many relationships come to an end not because of one person but because both parties have simply outgrown it, even if one person doesn’t realize it at the time. When it ends I’ll take each relationship as a lesson and embrace the imprint it leaves on me, because it is a part of me. I will take the good in each and cherish it and the bad in each and discard it. Not so easy to do, trust me I know, but with the help of family, friends, and co-workers I have found the strength to do it.

Strong Enough To Remember You Now

Days weeks months, that’s how long I told the world I didn’t even think about you anymore. But that was a lie and whenever I let my guard down you were there in my memories. Reminding me of the time we walked down that street, ate at that restaurant, listened to that song, or saw that movie. I would do my best to push you out, but I couldn’t, the memory of us and what we were was too strong and it hurt, it hurt a lot.

There have been others since you, they’ve come and gone, none lasted for very long. I would asked myself why? Was I subconsciously compared them to you? Was I being too protective of my heart? Was I building a wall around it, so no one could ever walk away from and break it again? The truth is I was doing all those things and more

But time has a funny way of healing you. For me it was a daily grind and I came to realize that trying to forget someone you loved as much as I loved you is… well it’s impossible. But I got a little stronger each day and slowly I began to remember who I was before you and I started picked up the pieces. Slowly and meticulously I put them back together. The scar where you once resided in my heart still a vivid reminder of us. But not a symbol of pain anymore.

Today I’m strong enough to remember the good and bad and the love we shared. The thought of you is no longer painful, no longer an obstacle to my moving forward. Now when I remember what we once had it brings a smile to my face.   I guess that is because deep down there will always be that special place that you occupy in my heart and I’m okay with that because I’m strong enough to remember you now.

Not Just A Door

It was a long workday followed by an unusually brutal commute. Exhausted I stood in front of my door and suddenly I was overcome with a sense of happiness. Happy to be home? No, that’s not it. Sure this day was rough but no more than hundreds of days before it. So, what was it? I know, it was because on the other side of the door she was there. Ever since she’s been on the other side of the door it wasn’t just a door, it’s the door to a home, a door I looked forward to opening all day. An ordinary door she had transformed into a door to my heart. It was with that realization I turned the key and opened the door and there she stood and I knew I was home.