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The Heart Knows No Time

The heart knows no concept of time, for the heart time is nothing more than a meaningless concept, a man-made measure. It is why the heart of someone who has known love but for a brief period can be broken just as easily and hurt just as much as that of someone who has loved for a long period of time.  The heart never asks how long it has been? The heart only knows that it feels the way it does when that special someone walks in the room, smiles at you, holds your hand, looks into your eyes and says they love you.  It does not matter to the heart if they have known that person for 2 months, 2 years or 2 decades it only knows that person makes it feel a way no one else does.  Others may ask how you could be so hurt after all you only were only with them but for a second and your brain may struggle with that question, but the heart knows.  The time your heart needs to heal from the loss of that special person does not equate like some mathematical equation to the amount of time you were with them.  Yes, you will get stronger as the days go by and yes you will learn to let go. You will come to a point where you will allow yourself to look back and smile at all the good times you shared without being sad that they are no more.  You will embrace the truth, that you will never truly forget them because the heart truly never forgets.  But your heart will heal in its own time and then and only then will you be able to open it up to love again.

Memories of Us

It’s been a minute hasn’t it been, but there you were in my dreams again tip toeing into my subconscious when I thought I had forgotten all about you.  I’m not going to lie seeing you again brought a smile to my face,  all the good memories we created together flooding my mind.  It’s funny now to think there was a time that the thought of you and I, what we were and how that is no more made me sad. But that time has passed, I’m so much stronger now. Aware now of all the love that had always been afforded me by so many.  To finally understand that the love of the Lord is stronger than any love I could ever desire.  I’ve learned to embrace myself, to love myself. So yes now the memory of the happy times between us, and there were some damn good times, makes me smile for I accept now they were an essential part of the journey I’ve been on to being the person I am today.  Goodbye for now it was nice seeing you again and I hope you have found the happiness that you were a part of in me finding mine. 

A mental connection

So you’re with him now. Well I wish you happiness and hope you found what you were looking for. But even you have to admit a love like the one we shared is not so easily forgotten. Even after we walked away from each other a little bit of me remains with you, just like a little bit of you has remained with me. So I wonder, on those nights you lay awake beside him do you hear it? Do you hear my voice saying I love you. We might not be together physically and maybe that’s for the best but we will always share a mental connection no matter who we’re with. Because while we may not have worked out a love like ours will never be broken. As Mr. Spock once said it is not logical but it often times true.

Thank you for walking away

Thank you for walking away
Thank you for not giving us a chance
I was fooled by all the times you said I love you
I committed my heart to you
I was ready to spend my life with you and when you left it hurt.
But looking back at it I see you were just looking to waste time. You were just looking for a soft landing spot. Your past relationship was a failure and you wanted to feel good about yourself and I was there. You never really loved me and I would have cheated myself if I had settled for you. You see I’m a catch maybe you couldn’t see that but trust me others do. I’m not saying that to brag I’m saying it because it’s true. Am I perfect? Far from it I will make my share of mistakes. But I will always be there for the one I love. I will respect her and treat her like a queen and the woman I do commit my heart to will understand that and be willing to work through the tough times just as I will be willing to overlook her imperfections and work to make us work. Because a relationship is seldom two perfect people finding each other it’s two imperfect people willing to work together to make it work because of how they feel about each other. You’ll find someone and you’ll fool them until you can’t. I guess deep down you’ll never be truly happy because you don’t really know how to love. Anyway I wish you luck and thank you again.

The winds are carrying you away from me

The winds are carrying you away from me. As a man I take full responsibility for

Not hearing your voice
Not being responsive to your needs
Not understanding your concerns

But trust me when I say it’s not because of faded feelings, or desire for you. It’s not because I don’t value our relationship.  In fact I love and value you and the concept of us more now than I ever have. My love for you has never stopped growing getting stronger each day. Now the thought of losing you has me free falling with no parachute. Desperately clinging to the hope

That you will accept my apology
That you will believe in me again
That you will believe in us again
That you will understand how much I love you.
That you will let me hold you in my arms once again.

My love for you burns as brightly as it ever has and there is nothing I would not do to make your life as fulfilling as possible. You are my soul mate and I hope the winds bring your heart back to mine.

Letter to an ex

Life’s too short to hide your feelings, better to bare your heart and soul than to wake every morning the rest of your life with regret. So let me be brutally honest I am still very much in love with you; I miss everything about you – the sound of your voice, your breath taking beauty, your dazzling smile, your mesmerizing eyes and the sweet taste of your kiss. But most important I miss having you, the woman I love there everyday when I wake up.

It always amazed me – the connection I felt the very first moment I kissed you. Love at first kiss – YES!! When I looked in your eyes after that first kiss I knew you were the only one I would ever want to spend my life with. You are my best friend, my lover, the person I have given the key to my heart.  My love for you has no end of the day – for my love for you is everlasting. I do not need others to confirm this I only need to know what is in my heart. Despite our time apart that feeling has not changed, in fact it has only intensified and I very much regret letting other things get in the way of me showing that to you everyday.

I’m not asking you to go back to how it was. Rather I’m asking you to go forward, to a new start, a new beginning. I hope that in your heart somewhere a little bit of “us” still exist. I know I am not perfect I know I made some terrible mistakes and I am very sorry for them, there is not a day that goes by that I don’t deeply regret them. But I have heard it said the past does not erase the future, you learn from your mistakes and become a better person So I ask that you consider reopening your heart to a future with me, That you allow me to show you that I am in fact still very much the man you fell in love only better having learned from my mistakes. Open your heart once again to us and I will ensure that each and every day of our lives will be nothing short of a remarkable and passionate love affair.

She used to be right there on my right

She used to be right there on my right, my hand resting on the stick shift, her hand resting comfortably on mine. The top down and the warm summer air all around us as we drove for miles with no particular destination in mind. Every red light I would glance over at her and be captured by her smile. She had a way of tilting her head to the right ever so slightly when she smiled at me. It was so slight I doubt she even realized she was doing it. But that was because she only did it when she smiled at me and that’s how I knew it was a smile meant for me, no one else.

She used to be right there on my right, her hand comfortably in mine as we walked down the street. Talking and laughing as we walked for miles with no particular destination in mind. Every chance I got I would glance over at her and be captured by her eyes. Her eyes had a way of lighting up when she looked at me. I would tell her she wasn’t playing fair but she always said she didn’t know what I was talking about. But that was because they only lit up when she looked at me and that’s how I knew it was a look meant for me, no one else.

But she is no longer on my right and her smile, her look, a smile and a look meant for me, no one else is gone. I wonder if they belong to someone else. I wonder if she even knows that she’s giving him a smile and a look that tells him she loves him and no else.

She used to be right there on my right.