That very first kiss I’ll always remember that very first kiss.
It was unlike any kiss I had before, a moment of passion so powerful it stirred my soul, an electricity so strong that it shook my body. That night it wasn’t just our lips that touched but also our souls.
I always knew you were different, that there was something special about you. Just the thought of you made sweat pour from my pores, my heart beat faster and my emotions grow stronger. Never had I felt this way before and to be honest at first, I didn’t really know what do with it.
There you were every waking moment even when you weren’t there occupying every inch of my heart and my soul. What is this hold you have over me I wondered? Was this just some grown-up school yard crush? No, it couldn’t be, this was clearly so much more. Then I kissed you for the very first time and it all became so clear you weren’t just another, you were my soulmate.
Now there are those who scoff at the notion of soulmates, no such thing they say and there are those who believe but say don’t waste your time looking because you can spend your whole life and never find them. But I need search no more because with that very first kiss I had found mine.
I wonder did a little bit of you transfer to me and a little bit of me transfer to you with that very first kiss? I think it must of, because no matter where we are or how far apart we may be we’re never truly alone. We’re always with each other. With that very first kiss we gave each other the keys to our hearts and our souls and here we are years later still holding on to them.
So, let others wonder if it’s true because I know that it is with that with that very first kiss did a love affair began and my soulmate did I find.
Surrounded by friends and families the room counted down the final seconds of the decade and as the clock struck midnight exploded into cheers and laughter, hugs all around and glasses loudly clinking together as people toasted the new year, the new decade and amid it all I wondered to myself are you out there?
I have searched my whole life for you and on a few occasions, I thought I had found you. I used to think I knew what you would look like, who you would be but as the years went by I realized that I couldn’t know. You could be the person who smiles at me on the train, the one who I meet at the grocery store or bump into on the street. You could even be here tonight. You could be anyone, but I suspect I’ll know it when I find you. I’ll know the first time our smiles find each other across a crowded room.The first time we hold each other hand. The first time we look into each other eyes and our lips meet in a kiss. A kiss that leaves us lost in the moment and stirs our emotions like no other kiss has ever did before. I’ll know it because that kiss without any words will say I found you and I love you.
I look around the room and the glasses are still clinking; the smiles are still all around and then out of nowhere your smile captures my eye from across the room.I walked over smiled and said Happy New Year and I thought to myself yes, I know you’re out there and maybe just maybe we just shared our first smile.
Don’t wait to show her you love her. Tonight walk up to her and pull her close. Look into her eyes but utter not a sound for no words are needed in this moment. Lean in and kiss her but not just any kiss make it a kiss so sensual, so passionate that it leaves her lost in the moment of a kiss like no kiss she has ever experienced. Make it a kiss that reminds her how special she is, how beautiful she is, how sexy she is. Make it a kiss that reminds her that no other woman could ever stir your emotions like she can. Make it a kiss that messes up her lipstick in a way her lipstick has never been messed up before. Make it a kiss that when it is over her body quivers with anticipation of your lips meeting once again. Make it a kiss that without any words uttered says I love you. Don’t just kiss her make it a kiss!
There she was right on time, like every night, waiting for the bus the corner of Avenue A and East 10th Street at the edge of Tompkins Square Park. She was EXTRAORDINARY in every way. It wasn’t that she was THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL IN THE WORLD, although she may very well be, but her attitude, the way she carried herself, the way she moved. U GOT THE LOOK I thought to myself but no matter how good she looked, how sexy she was, I was always careful not to look too hard, LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT U was the last thing I wanted her to see. Damn I wish I wasn’t so SHY, that I had the courage to walk right up to her, look her in the eyes and tell her you are without a doubt one of THE BEAUTIFUL ONES and NOTHING COMPARES 2 U. But that wasn’t me. Then I realized in my daydreaming I had indeed been looking too hard and suddenly she was looking back at me. She smiled and started to walk my way. Somewhat terrified I thought about walking away but I couldn’t move she had me and that walk, oh my that walk, the way she moved there was no denying IT’S ABOUT THAT WALK. She knew it was a walk that would drive any man DELIRIOUS. Hey HOT THING she said, SHE SPOKE 2 ME I thought before I looked around in shock and said are you talking to me? SHHH she said don’t let words ruin this moment. If you TAKE ME WITH U I guarantee you IT’S GONNA BE A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT. She could sense that I was a bit wary, after all this kind of thing doesn’t happen to me. So she said I’m not looking for you to buy me DIAMONDS AND PEARLS because MONEY DON’T matter 2 NIGHT. You don’t have to be FOREVER IN MY LIFE I just WANNA BE YOUR LOVER tonight. Then she leaned in and sealed the deal with a KISS and with that kiss my confidence soared. So feeling like A THEIF IN THE TEMPLE TONIGHT I grabbed her hand and led her away. You know I don’t even know your name. She looked at me and smiled, my friends call me DARLING NIKKI and I just smiled back. Where we were heading that night I wasn’t sure but something told me our walk along ALPHABET STREET would surely lead to EROTIC CITY.