As I held him for the very first time, I looked into his eyes awash with emotions. My son! Was this true was I actually holding in my arms, my son. I had dreamed of this moment for as long as I could remember, and I knew that nothing would ever be the same. My life, the choices I’d make were no longer for me. Every decision I would make would be made with this beautiful young child I held in my arms in mind in mind, and I would have it no other way. I would go to war to protect this child; I would let no one or nothing hurt him physically, mentally, or spiritually. Despite my happiness, there was still a small part of me that wondered was it fair to bring him into this world. A world that will not look upon his beautiful bronze skin for the magnificence It represented. Instead, they will look at it as a threat. He will be a target, and each day he leaves the house, I will have to worry if he will return. He will have to work twice as hard to be considered an equal of those less talented than him. They will question him at every step. Was it fair to bring such innocence, such beauty into such an ugly world? Was it selfish on my part? Will I be able to protect my son? These are the thoughts that run through my mind in what should be a moment of unbridled joy. This sadly is the reality of being a black man in America
That very first kiss I’ll always remember that very first kiss.
It was unlike any kiss I had before, a moment of passion so powerful it stirred my soul, an electricity so strong that it shook my body. That night it wasn’t just our lips that touched but also our souls.
I always knew you were different, that there was something special about you. Just the thought of you made sweat pour from my pores, my heart beat faster and my emotions grow stronger. Never had I felt this way before and to be honest at first, I didn’t really know what do with it.
There you were every waking moment even when you weren’t there occupying every inch of my heart and my soul. What is this hold you have over me I wondered? Was this just some grown-up school yard crush? No, it couldn’t be, this was clearly so much more. Then I kissed you for the very first time and it all became so clear you weren’t just another, you were my soulmate.
Now there are those who scoff at the notion of soulmates, no such thing they say and there are those who believe but say don’t waste your time looking because you can spend your whole life and never find them. But I need search no more because with that very first kiss I had found mine.
I wonder did a little bit of you transfer to me and a little bit of me transfer to you with that very first kiss? I think it must of, because no matter where we are or how far apart we may be we’re never truly alone. We’re always with each other. With that very first kiss we gave each other the keys to our hearts and our souls and here we are years later still holding on to them.
So, let others wonder if it’s true because I know that it is with that with that very first kiss did a love affair began and my soulmate did I find.
You know who is the most excited about this time of year?
Satan that’s who!
You see Satan loves all the happiness and joy being had by so many. It is precisely that joy that brings sadness to the hearts of so many others. Individuals who have lost a love one. Those who are dealing with health or family issues. People struggling with a housing or financial hardship or just those who truly have no one to share the holidays with. For them the holidays can be a time of sadness and loneness and that’s the window of opportunity Satan see as a chance to break their faith. But as a Christian we are warriors for Christ and we can help keep old Satan at bay. Try being extra nice to those around us, friends and strangers. Smile at a stranger. Take a day and volunteer at a homeless shelter. Take an afternoon and spend it with an elderly person who has no one else to spend time with. Call up a family member or friend you’ve haven’t spoken to in a while just to see how their doing. Do whatever you can because if you are lucky enough to know joy and happiness this holiday season by committing just one random act of kindness each day between now and Christmas you would be amazed at just how much of an impact you may have on someone’s life.