Did you really think you could break me.
That you could convince me that earthly possessions were more valuable than spiritual ones.
That you could strip me of my compassion for others by exploiting inherent fears and prejudices that reside within us all.
That you could drive a wedge between me and my savior.
That you could cause me to abandon my faith and turn my back on him.
Look again and understand this:
My faith is strong in Him not you.
It is He who forgives me of my sins and loves me unconditionally not you.
It is he who I give praise to not you.
It is he who thank each day for allowing me to wake to this beautiful world that He created not you.
It is He who am a child of not you
It is He who has blessed with the promise of eternal life not you for as it is it is written in John 6:40
For it is My Father’s will that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in Him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day.”
It is because of Him the Lord my savior that you could never break me.
I often find myself gazing up at the night sky awed by the magnitude of the universe. So many stars with numerous planets revolving around many of them. In such vastness is it possible that we are all alone. The odds alone would seem to say no, that somewhere out there are other intelligent life. But what if their isn’t what if Earth is special. Teeming with various species this wonderful blue ball we call home travels around the sun not to close and not to far just the right distance to sustain life as we know it. The moon is our constant companion as we journey through space unique in its size to that of Earth compared to other planet’s satellites. Acting as a defense to shield us from asteroids and comets that would have otherwise impacted Earth. As well as serving as a major player in the evolution of life on Earth. Could all these factors just have been luck. Is life on Earth something that defied the odds and is unlikely to have happened anywhere else or is it all part of a master design.
Since science has taught us about the creation of the universe and the evolution of life here on Earth it has been at odds with the concept of creationism. But what if there is some truth to both? What if there is a higher force that started it all? What if the existence of the universe in all its wonder is developing the way science teaches us but is doing so as part of a higher force’s grand design if that is so why are we unique, as far we know, in the vastness of space? That question itself begs the answer to a another question. What are we here for, what are we meant to do, meant to be?
Since the beginning of mankind we have found ways to hate, subjugate, and kill each other based on whatever excuse is convenient at the time. We have evolved to the point that not only are we a danger to each other but to our most important living force, Mother Earth. Clearly this could not be our purpose. We must have a greater significance or our very existence is pointless. After all when all the prejudices that fuel our hate are wiped away we are all the same. We may look different, speak different languages, live on one side of a imaginary lines we have divided this planet into or the other but we are all human reliant on this beautiful blue ball that we seem to take for granted as we continue to abuse her.
I choose to believe that if we embraced each other, showed compassion to each other and stopped our abuse of the planet we would be able to connect as a whole, each individual with each other and subsequently with the Earth itself. The sheer thought of what that connection would unleash within us, what we could accomplish as a species is beyond description and maybe just maybe that is what we are meant to accomplish. Maybe the higher force gave us the ability to make our own decisions to see if we would embrace the concept of unity. To see if we could work together to uplift each other, to build a better society one in which all individuals would live without the fear of hunger, homelessness, poverty, terrorism and war. If that truly is our ultimate purpose we are a long way from realizing it. But we have taken baby steps in the right direction as the fictional Captain Kirk once uttered – We are a promising species and maybe in a thousand years or so we’ll be able to prove it. After all our existence is unique now we must prove we are worthy of that.
So I haven’t had a new post for the blog for a bit and there’s a good reason. After a routine medical procedure at the hospital something went terribly wrong and my heart stopped. Luckily for me I was still in the hospital and they worked on me for 40 minutes. It was still touch and go after that and I was heavily sedated for about a week, let me tell you if you’re heavily sedated your mind takes you to some weird places, but here I am today. Doctors and nurses called me miracle man because of how quickly I rebounded from where I was. No doubt this has been a tough year for me medically after dealing with legionnaires disease last summer, still wondering where that came from, but I believe the hand of the lord has saved me twice now as if he was telling me ain’t your time yet kid you have big things yet to do. These set backs may seem difficult but it’s all part of the overall plan. I truly believe that I have the faith that he will help me through this rehab part of my healing and guide me to finding my ultimate purpose for being on this earth.
The other thing this incident has taught me is the overwhelming amount of love my family and friends have for me. Even friends who live outside of New York traveled to be by my bedside. Others who stopped by everyday and of course my sister Carole who has been my rock. She has not missed a day, she has slept overnight in the hospital only to have to get up at a ridiculous hour to go home and get ready for work. I don’t know what I would do without her and I won’t even try to use words describe how thankful and how much I love her. It is truly overwhelming to know how deeply my friends and family care about me. Their visits, their words of encouragement, their prayers all have been such a positive factor in my overcoming this latest test of faith but thanks to them I am well on the way to doing just that and I thank all of them.