Did you think you could break me?
That you could convince me that earthly possessions were more valuable than spiritual ones, strip me of my compassion for others by exploiting inherent fears and prejudices that reside within us all,
drive a wedge between my savior and me, cause me to abandon my faith and turn my back on him.
Look again and understand this:
My faith is strong in Him, not you.
He who forgives me of my sins and loves me unconditionally, not you.
He who I give praise to, not you.
He who I thank each day for allowing me to wake to this beautiful world that He created, not you.
He who am a child of not you.
He who has blessed with the promise of eternal life not you for as it is written in John 6:40
For it is My Father’s will that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in Him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day.”
It is because of Him, the Lord, my savior, that you could never break me.
I often find myself gazing up at the night sky, awed by the magnitude of the universe. So many stars with numerous planets revolving around them, is it possible that we are all alone? The odds alone would seem to say no, that somewhere out there is other intelligent life. But what if there isn’t? What if Earth is unique. Teeming with various species, this great blue ball we call home travels around the sun not too close and not too far, just the right distance to sustain life as we know it. The moon is our constant companion as we journey through space, unique in its size to Earth compared to other planet’s satellites, serving as a defense to shield us from asteroids and comets that would have impacted Earth. As well as serving as a significant player in the evolution of life on Earth, could all these factors just have been luck? Is life on Earth something that defied the odds and is unlikely to have happened anywhere else, or is it all part of a master design?
Since science has taught us about the creation of the universe and the evolution of life here on Earth, it has been at odds with the concept of creationism. But what if there is some truth to both? What if there is a higher force that started it all? What if the universe’s existence in all its wonder is developing the way science teaches us but is doing so as part of a higher force’s grand design? If that is so, why are we unique, as far we know, in the vastness of space? That question itself begs the answer to another question. What are we here for, what are we meant to do, meant to be?
Since the beginning of humanity, we have found ways to hate, subjugate, and kill each other based on whatever excuse is convenient at the time. We have evolved to the point that we are a danger to each other and our most important living force, Mother Earth. This could not be our purpose. We must have a greater significance, or our very existence is pointless. After all, when all the prejudices that fuel our hate are wiped away, we are all the same. We may look different, speak different languages, live on one side of imaginary lines we have divided this planet into or the other. Still, we are all human reliant on this beautiful blue ball that we seem to take for granted as we continue to abuse her. I choose to believe that if we embraced each other, showed compassion to each other, and stopped our abuse of the planet, we would be able to connect as a whole, each individual with each other and subsequently with the Earth itself. The sheer thought of what that connection would unleash within us, what we could accomplish as a species, is beyond description, and maybe just maybe that is what we are meant to accomplish. Perhaps the higher force gave us the ability to make our own decisions to see if we would embrace the concept of unity. To see if we could work together to uplift each other, to build a better society, one in which all individuals would live without the fear of hunger, homelessness, poverty, terrorism, and war. If that truly is our ultimate purpose, we are a long way from realizing it. But we have taken baby steps in the right direction as the fictional Captain Kirk once uttered – We are a promising species, and maybe in a thousand years or so, we’ll be able to prove it. After all, our existence is unique now; we must prove we are worthy of that.
So I haven’t had a new post for the blog for a bit, and there’s a good reason. After a routine medical procedure at the hospital, something went wrong, and my heart stopped. Luckily for me, I was still in the hospital, and they worked on me for 40 minutes. It was still touch and go after that, and I was heavily sedated for about a week; let me tell you if you’re heavily sedated, your mind takes you to some weird places, but here I am today. Doctors and nurses called me miracle man because of how quickly I rebounded from where I was. No doubt this has been a tough year for me medically after dealing with Legionnaires disease last summer, still wondering where that came from, but I believe the hand of the Lord has saved me twice now as if he was telling me ain’t your time yet kid you have big things yet to do. These setbacks may seem difficult, but it’s all part of the overall plan. I genuinely believe that I have the faith that he will help me through this rehab part of my healing and guide me to finding my ultimate purpose for being on this earth. This incident has taught me the overwhelming amount of love my family and friends have for me. Even friends who live outside of New York traveled to be by my bedside. Others stopped by every day, and of course, my sister Carole who has been my rock. She has not missed a day; she has slept overnight in the hospital only to have to get up at a ridiculous hour to go home and get ready for work. I don’t know what I would do without her, and I won’t even try to use words to describe how thankful and how much I love her. It is truly overwhelming to know how deeply my friends and family care about me. Their visits, their words of encouragement, and their prayers have been such a positive factor in overcoming this latest test of faith, but thanks to them, I am well on the way to doing just that, and I thank all of them.