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Thank you for walking away

Thank you for walking away
Thank you for not giving us a chance
I was fooled by all the times you said I love you
I committed my heart to you
I was ready to spend my life with you and when you left it hurt.
But looking back at it I see you were just looking to waste time. You were just looking for a soft landing spot. Your past relationship was a failure and you wanted to feel good about yourself and I was there. You never really loved me and I would have cheated myself if I had settled for you. You see I’m a catch maybe you couldn’t see that but trust me others do. I’m not saying that to brag I’m saying it because it’s true. Am I perfect? Far from it I will make my share of mistakes. But I will always be there for the one I love. I will respect her and treat her like a queen and the woman I do commit my heart to will understand that and be willing to work through the tough times just as I will be willing to overlook her imperfections and work to make us work. Because a relationship is seldom two perfect people finding each other it’s two imperfect people willing to work together to make it work because of how they feel about each other. You’ll find someone and you’ll fool them until you can’t. I guess deep down you’ll never be truly happy because you don’t really know how to love. Anyway I wish you luck and thank you again.

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Letter to an ex

Life’s too short to hide your feelings, better to bare your heart and soul than to wake every morning the rest of your life with regret. So let me be brutally honest I am still very much in love with you; I miss everything about you – the sound of your voice, your breath taking beauty, your dazzling smile, your mesmerizing eyes and the sweet taste of your kiss. But most important I miss having you, the woman I love there everyday when I wake up.

It always amazed me – the connection I felt the very first moment I kissed you. Love at first kiss – YES!! When I looked in your eyes after that first kiss I knew you were the only one I would ever want to spend my life with. You are my best friend, my lover, the person I have given the key to my heart.  My love for you has no end of the day – for my love for you is everlasting. I do not need others to confirm this I only need to know what is in my heart. Despite our time apart that feeling has not changed, in fact it has only intensified and I very much regret letting other things get in the way of me showing that to you everyday.

I’m not asking you to go back to how it was. Rather I’m asking you to go forward, to a new start, a new beginning. I hope that in your heart somewhere a little bit of “us” still exist. I know I am not perfect I know I made some terrible mistakes and I am very sorry for them, there is not a day that goes by that I don’t deeply regret them. But I have heard it said the past does not erase the future, you learn from your mistakes and become a better person So I ask that you consider reopening your heart to a future with me, That you allow me to show you that I am in fact still very much the man you fell in love only better having learned from my mistakes. Open your heart once again to us and I will ensure that each and every day of our lives will be nothing short of a remarkable and passionate love affair.

They Lied to You

They lied to you. Looked you right in the eyes and told you they loved you. Looked you right in the eyes and told you they wanted to spend their life with you. But truthfully you were just a bridge a soft landing spot out of a bad situation for them. But since you believed their lies the hurt of losing them almost broke you and then one day it happened. You woke up and didn’t reach for them, their absence from your life was not your first thought. Your mind had finally come to the understanding that they were never worthy of your love, that they were not the one you were meant to share your life with. Your heart dropped the wall it had built up and while somewhat scarred it was mostly intact and was now willing to let others in again. You had learned a valuable lesson about both love and deceit and while painful it did not break you just the opposite over time it made you stronger. Strong enough to love again unconditionally the one who looks you in the eyes and really means it when say I love you.

She used to be right there on my right

She used to be right there on my right, my hand resting on the stick shift, her hand resting comfortably on mine. The top down and the warm summer air all around us as we drove for miles with no particular destination in mind. Every red light I would glance over at her and be captured by her smile. She had a way of tilting her head to the right ever so slightly when she smiled at me. It was so slight I doubt she even realized she was doing it. But that was because she only did it when she smiled at me and that’s how I knew it was a smile meant for me, no one else.

She used to be right there on my right, her hand comfortably in mine as we walked down the street. Talking and laughing as we walked for miles with no particular destination in mind. Every chance I got I would glance over at her and be captured by her eyes. Her eyes had a way of lighting up when she looked at me. I would tell her she wasn’t playing fair but she always said she didn’t know what I was talking about. But that was because they only lit up when she looked at me and that’s how I knew it was a look meant for me, no one else.

But she is no longer on my right and her smile, her look, a smile and a look meant for me, no one else is gone. I wonder if they belong to someone else. I wonder if she even knows that she’s giving him a smile and a look that tells him she loves him and no else.

She used to be right there on my right.

Or else forgot about it.

Her eyes were her calling card and she knew it. Beautifuland especially good at drawing you in and once they had you all she needed to do was say the things that made you want to believe it was real.

You are my hero everyday she would tell me.
Promise me you’ll never leave she would ask.
I love you she would proclaim.

As much as I wanted to believe she was the one. As much as I wanted to believe her words were real. I knew that words were just that, words.

So I looked into her beautiful eyes, the ones I wanted to believe I would look into forever and said

Give me your heart
Make it real
Or else forget about it

Faced with this decision she looked back at me, closed her eyes, perhaps to let me go and said I can’t do it. Then she turned and walked away and just like that she was gone.  And that was more than telling than any words she ever uttered.

There was a Time

There was a time when I would see your face when I looked at any woman.  But that was only an illusion, no more real than any of the times you said the words I love you.

There was a time when I thought I had found my soul-mate in you. But that was only an illusion, no more real than the times you said that you wanted to share your life with me.

There was a time when I believed we would never come to an end. But that was only an illusion, no more real than your what your true feelings were for me.

There was a time but it was only an illusion.