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You Are Not Alone

They see the smile, a smile that conceals the pain behind it. 

They see the many friends, friends that hide the loneliness within you. 

They hear the laughter, laughter that disguises the depression you feel. 

They watch as you reach out to all those who need help never imagining you secretly covet someone to reach out to you. 

Your face is a mask and you are but an actor. But there are fleeting seconds when the stage lights dim, the crowd empties out and now alone you remove your mask and to see the tears that are streaming down your face. 

But in those seconds know this, you are not alone.  There is someone who feels your pain, knows your loneliness and sees your depression.  Someone who has always loved you and whose arms have always been outstretched toward you. That someone is the Lord and all you need to do is believe. Believe that if you put your faith in Him in time He will relieve you of your troubles and you will need your mask no more.

Memories of Us

It’s been a minute hasn’t it been, but there you were in my dreams again tip toeing into my subconscious when I thought I had forgotten all about you.  I’m not going to lie seeing you again brought a smile to my face,  all the good memories we created together flooding my mind.  It’s funny now to think there was a time that the thought of you and I, what we were and how that is no more made me sad. But that time has passed, I’m so much stronger now. Aware now of all the love that had always been afforded me by so many.  To finally understand that the love of the Lord is stronger than any love I could ever desire.  I’ve learned to embrace myself, to love myself. So yes now the memory of the happy times between us, and there were some damn good times, makes me smile for I accept now they were an essential part of the journey I’ve been on to being the person I am today.  Goodbye for now it was nice seeing you again and I hope you have found the happiness that you were a part of in me finding mine. 

You stepped into my life And I’m oh, so happy

With a nod to Melba Moore’s classic you stepped into my life

You stepped into my life
And I’m oh, so happy
You stepped into my life
And I’m oh, so happy
Stepped into my life
Steeped into my life

Before you came my way
I had so much worry
Always thought it would never work out
Thought I was alone
That I wasn’t worthy
But then you came to me
Told me I was your child
And you would always love me
All I had to do is have my heart believe
If I wanted to come home I just need to confess
And I’ll be forgiven of any sin

You stepped into my life
And I’m oh, so happy

Others look at me and wonder what has happened
You gave me so much more than I deserved
Now I kneel before you and praise you every day
Cause I understand that you’re always watching and protecting me
And I believe that You will work out all my problems
Because I know with You all things are possible

You stepped into my life
And I’m oh, so happy

That moment of Doubt

You keep trying.

You wait for that moment of doubt to pounce.

You keep putting obstacles in my path. As soon as I clear one you are quick to put up another.

But what you forget is I am human and doubt is part of who I am.

But in that moment of doubt my savior does not forsake me, he does not fear a little doubt, he embraces it.

In that moment of doubt, I look to my savior for strength.

In that moment of doubt, I remember it is my savior who created me

In that moment of doubt, I remember it is my savior who created this wonderful planet I live on.

In that moment of doubt, I remember it is my savior who allowed me to wake this morning.

In that moment of doubt, I remember it is not for me to know why this may be happening now but that in my faith it is to believe that He is working to make it better and I simply need to be patient and let Him work.

So, keep trying because I will look you directly in the eye and exclaim you have no power over my savior.

You cannot defeat him unless I willing turn away from Him and accept you and that will never happen. Because in that moment of doubt I know He stands behind me keeping me strong and faithful.

He is my savior.

Dinner for the week

Last Sunday I spend a good part of my morning and afternoon cooking for the week. Italian meatloaf (really turkey loaf), Cornish game hens, collard greens, black bean soup and spaghetti with mussels. Rewind almost a year ago and I was recovering from a cardiac arrest. Those that were there have told me the Doctors on the scene worked to bring me back longer than they should of, the priest who stopped in to see me each day in ICU called me miracle man. My recovery was quicker than was expected. My physical rehabilitation progressed nicely. 3 months after the event I went home from the rehab center and shortly thereafter returned to work. A miracle? Maybe but more likely just another day for the Lord almighty, who chose to reach down and touch me and say not yet my son there is still work for you to do on this Earth. Now I won’t lie it hasn’t been smooth sailing since the event some days are better than others there are bumps along the road health wise. Despite that every day I wake and can see and smell the wonderful world around me and know of all the love my family and friends have for me, a love so apparent during my recovery and no doubt a major factor in it. For this I am truly blessed, blessed that the hand of the Lord has touched me and given me this second chance at life. Allowed me to spend a Sunday cooking for the week because despite what bumps may be along the way, in my mind I know He stands over me and will allow me to wake another day, so I might as well have something to eat on those days. I do not know what His ultimate plan is for me but I do know he has touched me and he is guiding me and for that I am eternally thankful.

Prayer and Meditation. Medicine for the Mind, Body and soul

I have recently taken to a form of prayer and mediation. I find a quiet place, sit up straight and plant my feet firmly so that the positive energy of the world flows up through the ground and through my body.  I endeavor to clear my mind of all distractions and close my eyes. I visualize myself relaxed and smiling as the hand of the Lord touches and begins to heal me. Heal me physically, heal me mentally and heal me spiritually. Then I pray these words

Heavenly Father I ask that you lay your healing hands upon my heart so that it is made stronger and able to carry the blood of life that you have blessed us with through out my entire body. I ask this Heavenly Fatger so that I may live a long life to shout your praise to all who will hear me.  I ask this Heavenly Father so that through the special gifts you have bestowed upon me I can share them with others so that they too can see your greatness and be motivated and inspired to help others reach for the stars. I ask this so that I can be an example to never give up your faith and trust in you even when it appears things are not going as well as they would like in the moment.  I ask this Heavenly Father so that I may awake each day blessed with the senses you have so blessed me with in order to take in and appreciate the beauty and wonders of this magnificent world you have created for us. I ask this Heavenly Father so that I may continue to enjoy the fellowship and love of family, friends and even strangers who you have so seen fit to place in my path as I travel this spiritual journey. I ask this Heavenly Father because in my faith I know that while man can help me to maintain my health, my mind and my spirituality only you who can truly heal my mind, body and soul.  I ask all of this in your name Heavenly Father.  Amen

Then I open my eyes pause for a moment to allow the energy of the Lord to travel through my body.  After a brief moment of silence and reflection with the energy of the Lord flowing through me I close my eyes again and say the following: “The Lord is healing me  I am getting stronger every day.” I repeat this for 5, 10, 15 minutes whatever I am most comfortable with that day.   When I am done I remain sitting quietly letting the power of the power of the Lord flow throughout my body.  Finally I stand up and go about my day relaxed, renews and emboldened by the knowledge that I am in God’s world and in his world nothing is impossible.

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Nothing is impossible in HIS world

Watching Joel Osteen this morning and the Lord must be using him to preach right at me and my current situation this morning. He is preaching that we should never laugh in disbelief at what God puts in front of us even if it seems impossible. For whenyou laugh God will simply say welcome my child to my world. 

Nothing is impossible in HIS world. 

It may not happen right away, there may be obstacles placed in your way.  This is never going to happen you may think. But that is only because as humans we can not always see the larger picture but rest assured HE does. We must keep the faith, continue to praise the Lord, continue to push through the obstacles and when HE blesses you with that which you thought was impossible. With as Olsteen called it a “who ever thought miracle.” You won’t be laughing in disbelief any longer you will be laughing in amazement. 

Nothing is impossible in HIS world. 

I have congestive heart failure an on June 7th I had a cardiac event. My heart stopped, doctors told my sister things don’t look so good. But God look down on me and said son it is yet your time and HE breathed the gift of life back into my body. A week later the hospital minister would come into my room and with a huge laugh say miracle man I can’t believe you  are up and talking to me after what you looked like last week.  He was laughing in amazement. 

Nothing is impossible in HIS world. 

My cardiologist tells me the medicine he prescribes for me and the diet he says I should follow will help me maintain my health. But you can’t just reverse congestive heart failure. I just laugh in disbelief at that. Sure I will take my medicine and follow my diet but while he may prescribe medicines and suggest diets to maintain my health it is only HE who can truly heal me and then we will all be laughing in amazement. 

Nothing is impossible in HIS world. 

You see I have faith that the Lord has not brought me to this point along the spiritual  journey to simply drop me off on the side of the road.  I have faith that while I may not see it completely HE knows the big picture. HE sees what he has in store in for me. I have faith that as Osteen preached this morning HE is positioning me to do something positive. I will continue to pray to and praise him and you should too. No matter what your current situation may be. No matter what obstacles may appear to be in your path. Keep the faith and soon you will be laughing in amazement.  

Nothing is impossible in HIS world. 

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