You looked at me and asked, had I ever had a love that I was sure was real? What if it wasn’t? What if the other person only said they loved you? How would you know the difference between true love and just words?
I was puzzled but you continued. When love was first conceived you said it was pure, it never gave up, never lost faith, was always hopeful and endured through every circumstance. It was that pure love that first bonded together couples. But over time people corrupted it, used it for their own gains and selfish purposes. They told others they loved them when in fact they never did. Those who have been hurt and allowed that experience to remain with them will never be free to experience true love again. But it has been said that true love will return to those who open their hearts to it and there are those of us who have spent our entire lives looking for it. Then you took my hand and said when I first saw you I knew immediately. Knew what I asked? That you were the one you said. I was still bitter and guarded from the last one, afraid to truly commit, but you waited patiently. You said you did so because you believe that the search for true love was over for both of us.
I looked at you and asked what are you trying to tell me that I can protect my heart from being hurt again? No, you said with a smile when I’m ready to commit my heart to you I won’t have to.
That very first kiss I’ll always remember that very first kiss.
It was unlike any kiss I had before, a moment of passion so powerful it stirred my soul, an electricity so strong that it shook my body. That night it wasn’t just our lips that touched but also our souls.
I always knew you were different, that there was something special about you. Just the thought of you made sweat pour from my pores, my heart beat faster and my emotions grow stronger. Never had I felt this way before and to be honest at first, I didn’t really know what do with it.
There you were every waking moment even when you weren’t there occupying every inch of my heart and my soul. What is this hold you have over me I wondered? Was this just some grown-up school yard crush? No, it couldn’t be, this was clearly so much more. Then I kissed you for the very first time and it all became so clear you weren’t just another, you were my soulmate.
Now there are those who scoff at the notion of soulmates, no such thing they say and there are those who believe but say don’t waste your time looking because you can spend your whole life and never find them. But I need search no more because with that very first kiss I had found mine.
I wonder did a little bit of you transfer to me and a little bit of me transfer to you with that very first kiss? I think it must of, because no matter where we are or how far apart we may be we’re never truly alone. We’re always with each other. With that very first kiss we gave each other the keys to our hearts and our souls and here we are years later still holding on to them.
So, let others wonder if it’s true because I know that it is with that with that very first kiss did a love affair began and my soulmate did I find.
The sun streams through the blinds, it’s Sunday morning and it’s only 7:00 am, yet here I lay next to you wide awake. I look over and wonder if you know? if you have any clue? That it was you that saved my heart?
Before I met you, I had given up on love. Swore to myself that I would never allow anyone to make me feel the way I felt when she broke my heart. Shattered it into a million little pieces really, and I thought I would never be able to put it back together. Then you walked into my life, your smile a wrecking ball to the wall of bitterness I had built around my heart. I knew you were special, but I was still scared of being hurt and you seemingly sensed my apprehension, but it never deterred you, you simply let each moment be its own and as time went by brick by brick my wall started to crumble. Then one day my heart, that you had been putting back together from that very first smile, opened wide and your love came flooding in.
Now thanks to you I know love again. But it is a love reserved only for you, because you brought me back, you saved my heart.
Shhh be quiet
Be still and listen closely
Do you hear it?
Some curse the rain but that is only because they have never taken the time to listen to it’s voice. But if you listen closely you’ll hear it as it talks to us. Each shower unique. Hear it yell as its thunderclaps explode above you. Hear it whisper as it’s drops touch down around you.
Feel it as it softly touches your skin. Take it all in because rain is nature’s way of talking us, cleansing our very souls as it cleanses the earth. Lighting the sky to guide us through the darkness, washing away the past and showering the seed to a new beginning.
Shhh be quiet it’s raining and there is nothing more beautiful than that.
You know who is the most excited about this time of year?
Satan that’s who!
You see Satan loves all the happiness and joy being had by so many. It is precisely that joy that brings sadness to the hearts of so many others. Individuals who have lost a love one.Those who are dealing with health or family issues.People struggling with a housing or financial hardship or just those who truly have no one to share the holidays with.For them the holidays can be a time of sadness and loneness and that’s the window of opportunity Satan see as a chance to break their faith.But as a Christian we are warriors for Christ and we can help keep old Satan at bay.Try being extra nice to those around us, friends and strangers.Smile at a stranger.Take a day and volunteer at a homeless shelter. Take an afternoon and spend it with an elderly person who has no one else to spend time with. Call up a family member or friend you’ve haven’t spoken to in a while just to see how their doing. Do whatever you can because if you are lucky enough to know joy and happiness this holiday season by committing just one random act of kindness each day between now and Christmas you would be amazed at just how much of an impact you may have on someone’s life.
It’s been a minute hasn’t it been, but there you were in my dreams again tip toeing into my subconscious when I thought I had forgotten all about you.I’m not going to lie seeing you again brought a smile to my face, all the good memories we created together flooding my mind. It’s funny now to think there was a time that the thought of you and I, what we were and how that is no more made me sad. But that time has passed, I’m so much stronger now. Aware now of all the love that had always been afforded me by so many. To finally understand that the love of the Lord is stronger than any love I could ever desire. I’ve learned to embrace myself, to love myself. So yes, now the memory of the happy times between us, and there were some damn good times, makes me smile for I accept now they were an essential part of the journey I’ve been on to be the person I am today.Goodbye for now it was nice seeing you again and I hope you have found the happiness that you were a part of in me finding mine.