Sometimes we have to do what we don’t want to do so that we may do the things we want to do. As Spock would say it is not logical but it is often true.
For the better part of a decade plus I let anger and bitterness fill my heart when it came to a certain family member. The reason for my anger is neither here nor there but suffice to say it was Ironic that despite the fact I was harboring a grudge I knew that the result of their actions played out to my benefit. So much so that it laid the very foundation of the man I am today and I am very proud of that man. Yet despite this indisputable fact I continued to curse the decision and the way it was revealed to me.
Hebrews 12:15 – “looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled.”
Not acknowledging my bitterness and true feelings during this time robbed me of a family bond that should never been broken. My anger cast a giant shadow on my very being. The rift between that family member and myself by its very nature spilled over to that family member’s immediate family. In essence I cut myself off from them while not acknowledging to myself that was doing exactly what I was doing. I missed the birth of many children and the growth of others. I became a stranger to an entire branch of the family tree. I can never put into prospective what those losses have had on me as a person but I know it could not have been positive. Family is always family and through anger and bitterness I had forgotten that.
A recent health issue was the catalyst for me to re-examine and reenergize my faith. Through prayer the Lord spoke to me and guided me to the realization that the very lack of forgiveness is sin. That very lesson is taught to us in “The Lord’s Prayer.”
Matthew 6: 12-15
12 And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. 13 And lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from the evil one.‘ 14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
As it is explained it is explained in Bible.org href=”https://bible.org/article/issue-forgiveness-sermon-mount”>https://bible.org/article/issue-forgiveness-sermon-mount it appears that what Jesus is really saying is that God, with a view toward loving the unforgiving child, refuses to forgive him in an attempt to get the child to come face to face with His sin of an unforgiving heart. The person who is unwilling to forgive will soon meet his Equal. The goal of this is to re-establish the broken relationships between God and the people involved.
For me this realization was like a bright light shining onto the darkness in my heart. The very next day I picked up the phone and called that family member to start the healing process and mend the rift between us. I expressed how wrong I had been and how I really wanted us to go back to being a family again. It was an emotional call, for both of us, but upon saying the words I want us to be a family again I could feel the weight lifted. My heart had been released of the bitterness it had stubbornly held for over a decade. I understood that I had finally done the right thing. After all family is family and nothing should break that bond.
Did you really think you could break me.
That you could convince me that earthly possessions were more valuable than spiritual ones.
That you could strip me of my compassion for others by exploiting inherent fears and prejudices that reside within us all.
That you could drive a wedge between me and my savior.
That you could cause me to abandon my faith and turn my back on him.
Look again and understand this:
My faith is strong in Him not you.
It is He who forgives me of my sins and loves me unconditionally not you.
It is he who I give praise to not you.
It is he who thank each day for allowing me to wake to this beautiful world that He created not you.
It is He who am a child of not you
It is He who has blessed with the promise of eternal life not you for as it is it is written in John 6:40
For it is My Father’s will that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in Him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day.”
It is because of Him the Lord my savior that you could never break me.
Something is weighing heavy on your soul. You seem lost and on the brink of no return. Yet you have turned away from your most powerful ally, the Lord.
Maybe you are worried how He will react if you talk to Him about your troubles. Maybe you think that because in good times you have gone so long without talking to Him and now feared his reaction when you reach out to him in times of despair.
Maybe you think that if you let Him in you’ll be a burden to Him. That you only are coming to Him because of the adversity you are facing.
Maybe you think He doesn’t care. Why else would you be in this situation if He did?
But what you should know is very simply this – the Lord will never let you walk alone. Not today, not tomorrow. You are His child and there will never be anything you cannot talk to Him about. Nothing you can not overcome with Him by your side. If you have faith in Him there will never be a time He will not be there for you.
He does these things not because He has too. But because of His love for us. A love that is everlasting. A love that saw Him give us His only son so that we me be forgiven of sin.
Embrace Him, praise Him, talk to Him, free yourself from worry and have faith that He will unburden your soul from the troubles that are consuming you.
There are times we feel overwhelmed. Times when we put too much on our shoulders, blame ourselves for all that is wrong. We each have to deal with our issues in our own way. However, for all of us it is easier dealing with our issues when we know that there is someone who loves us, there to pick us up when we fall, lean on when we cry. For those of us with faith we know that someone is the Lord.
When we were conceived we were pure and free from worry. It was that purity that bonded us with the Lord. But we corrupted it, swayed into disobeying the Lord by the forces of evil we ate from the tree of knowledge and were stripped of that purity and thrown out of paradise. We would now know adversity and hardship. Despair and heartbreak would become part of who we were. Man would no longer live in harmony which each other but look to take advantage of each other for their own selfish reasons. Fortunately for us the Lord is a forgiving and he did not give up on us as it is written in John 3:16
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
It is the Law of Attraction which uses the power of out mind to translate whatever is in our thoughts and materialize them into reality. When we honor the Lord through praise and prayer we are embracing the Lord, strengthening our faith in him and thus discovering the roadmap to eternal life and materializing his blessings on to us. These blessings include the strength, a strength so strong only He can truly give to us, to overcome any adversity in our journey to happiness. It is when we would connect with the Lord on this spiritual level we come to understand that He is all powerful and He is the only ally we need.
They say time heals all wounds, but time apart from you only grows more painful everyday
I long to hear your voice
see your smile
Hold you in my arms
Caress your skin
Kiss your lips
Hold your body next to mine
Given one more chance I know I would make it right. Be the partner you so deserves, be the man you desire. If you choose to walk away my heart would be lost forever