You keep putting obstacles in my path. As soon as I clear one you are quick to put up another.
But what you forget is I am human and doubt is part of who I am.
But in that moment of doubt my savior does not forsake me, he does not fear a little doubt, he embraces it.
In that moment of doubt, I look to my savior for strength.
In that moment of doubt, I remember it is my savior who created me
In that moment of doubt, I remember it is my savior who created this wonderful planet I live on.
In that moment of doubt, I remember it is my savior who allowed me to wake this morning.
In that moment of doubt, I remember it is not for me to know why this may be happening now but that in my faith it is to believe that He is working to make it better and I simply need to be patient and let Him work.
So, keep trying because I will look you directly in the eye and exclaim you have no power over my savior.
You cannot defeat him unless I willing turn away from Him and accept you and that will never happen. Because in that moment of doubt I know He stands behind me keeping me strong and faithful.
I have recently taken to a form of prayer and mediation. I find a quiet place, sit up straight and plant my feet firmly so that the positive energy of the world flows up through the ground and through my body. I endeavor to clear my mind of all distractions and close my eyes. I visualize myself relaxed and smiling as the hand of the Lord touches and begins to heal me. Heal me physically, heal me mentally and heal me spiritually. Then I pray these words
Heavenly Father I ask that you lay your healing hands upon my heart so that it is made stronger and able to carry the blood of life that you have blessed us with through out my entire body. I ask this Heavenly Fatger so that I may live a long life to shout your praise to all who will hear me. I ask this Heavenly Father so that through the special gifts you have bestowed upon me I can share them with others so that they too can see your greatness and be motivated and inspired to help others reach for the stars. I ask this so that I can be an example to never give up your faith and trust in you even when it appears things are not going as well as they would like in the moment. I ask this Heavenly Father so that I may awake each day blessed with the senses you have so blessed me with in order to take in and appreciate the beauty and wonders of this magnificent world you have created for us. I ask this Heavenly Father so that I may continue to enjoy the fellowship and love of family, friends and even strangers who you have so seen fit to place in my path as I travel this spiritual journey. I ask this Heavenly Father because in my faith I know that while man can help me to maintain my health, my mind and my spirituality only you who can truly heal my mind, body and soul. I ask all of this in your name Heavenly Father. Amen
Then I open my eyes pause for a moment to allow the energy of the Lord to travel through my body. After a brief moment of silence and reflection with the energy of the Lord flowing through me I close my eyes again and say the following: “The Lord is healing me I am getting stronger every day.” I repeat this for 5, 10, 15 minutes whatever I am most comfortable with that day. When I am done I remain sitting quietly letting the power of the power of the Lord flow throughout my body. Finally I stand up and go about my day relaxed, renews and emboldened by the knowledge that I am in God’s world and in his world nothing is impossible.
Not to toot my own horn but I was considered a rising star in my career. Having achieved success at every level I quickly rose through the ranks. While my colleagues continued to take training courses to strengthen their skill sets and keep pace with the new innovations and technologies. I chose to skip these training classes after all I was a star and what was a trainer going to teach me that I didn’t already know. Sadly due to an economic downturn the company was forced to lay off a number of employees including a supervisor in my division. Not being able to hire a new supervisor I was tasked with the responsibility of the direct supervision of that unit. Upon taking over I realized that much of what I thought I knew had evolved beyond my current level of understanding. Production levels began to suffer, people above me began to question my leadership. Self doubt started to creep into my psyche. My bitterness toward the company began to mount. How could they put me in this position? Were they setting me up to fail? Then one day my mentor came to me and said instead of moping around, being bitter and blaming the company realize that things were going so well for you it was easy to take your talents for granted you forgot what made you so successful. Recommit to your craft he said, take those training classes, brush up on the new technologies. Strengthen your area of expertise and you’ll see things will turn around. Taking his advice I put my nose to the grindstone and enrolled in the training classes, researched the new technology available and talked to staff to get their feedback on what we could do to increase efficiency. With my renewed energy and strengthen skill set it was only a matter of time before the numbers began to turn around and today the division is turning a profit at an all time high.
This story serves as a simile to our Faith. When things are sailing along in our lives we tend to take our faith for granted. But when faced with adversity many of us ask why me? Why is the Lord testing me? We become depressed at the situation and angry with the Lord. It is then that evil sees its opening and tempts us with the promise of a better day if we reject the Lord and follow it. When faced with this option many of us are easily swayed to accept evil’s proposition. After all if He truly loved me we think why would he test me in this way? But what we fail to understand is that the Lord is not testing us for Himself, he is testing us for ourselves. As someone once said:
When God pushes you to the edge, trust him fully, because only two things can happen. Either He will catch you when you fall or He will teach you how to fly.
The key part of that quote is the words trust him fully. In times of adversity it a test for us to see for ourselves how strong our faith truly is. To see if we remember that our good times were the result of His blessings. To see if our faith is as strong as we believed it to be or does it waiver in times of adversity. If it does indeed waiver we must like I did in my career put our nose to the grindstone and recommit to Him by taking steps along our spiritual journey to strengthen our faith. Remember we our His children and his love for us is unconditional. So much so that he gave us His only son so that we may be forgiven of sin. He loves us so that as it is written in Ephesians 13-14 He promised us eternal life.
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Once come to the understanding that the Lord will never abandon us and that we should not question when He will provide us with the blessings required to overcome the adversity we are facing but accept the truth that as it is written He makes all things beautiful in His time will we be able to prove to ourselves that we do indeed possess a faith that is strong and cannot be shaken even in times of adversity.