They say life is a series of random happenstances if you take one step to the left instead of the right you could set off a series of events that change the course of your life. But when it comes to you I suspect there was more than happenstance at play. With you I believe it was destiny.
Because it was on the day that I met you I turned left when I always turned right and there you were. I knew immediately that everything up until that moment was preparing me for you. Every step I had ever taken was leading me to you. I had unknowingly been walking a path toward you my whole life.
No one ever has and no one ever will make me feel the way you did when you first:
Smiled at me
Made me laugh
Held my hand
Said I love you
As crazy as it sounds I know that when I turned left when I always turned right it wasn’t happenstance it was destiny.
It is that time once again. The ending of one year the beginning of another.
A new year! A call to action! The opportunities to be better tomorrow and each succeeding day than you are today.
A chance to break free of the mundane, to refuse to paint in black and white and between the lines but instead wherever your imagination takes you. To paint your future in the bold strokes and daring colors it was meant to be painted in
A new year is the chance to embrace the truth. The truth that nothing is impossible as long as your faith remains strong and you dare to dream.
A new year,
A blank canvass,
A new beginning,
Make it yours
Because after all the future is but what you make it
Oracle: But you already know what I’m going to tell you.
Neo: I’m not The One…..
Oracle: Sorry, kid. You got the gift, but it looks like you’re waiting for something…
Oracle: Your next life maybe, who knows?
About a month and a half ago my heart stopped for what I was told was 30 minutes. Doctors told my family it doesn’t look good, that if I did survive brain damage was likely. Yet I was told the team continued to work to bring me back long past the time they would normally work on someone, thankfully I had that AR always resuscitate order LOL. Less than a week later after being heavily sedated I was awake and alert with no brain damage. Some hospital workers and the hospital chaplain started calling me miracle man. Since that time I have been in the hospital recovering unable to walk or sit up as my core/trunk muscles had atrophied. Having to rely on others to clean you after going to the bathroom on a bedpan is a humbling experience. Depression began to set in. Then with the help of family and friends I began to realize their was no need to be depressed rather I should celebrate this “next life” that I had been granted. That I had the gift and was given this new chance to realize my destiny.
“I am a Jedi. I’m one with the Force, and the Force will guide me.”
“For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is.”
“Close your eyes. Feel it. The light…it’s always been there. It will guide you.”
“Now I know there is something strong than fear — far stronger. The Force.”
Having come to the realization that I was given this second chance to realize my destiny I needed to understand how I could actually begin to accomplish it. First I needed to heal myself physically I needed to get stronger. Thoughts of pumping my body full of pills and simply doing the exercises the therapists were showing me would accomplish this were flawed as my progress was minimal. But then what night I had a breakthrough in my thinking I came to understand that to heal physically and mentally I needed to tap into my belief in myself and my faith in the Lord. As with the fictional Force I understood that the Lord is a powerful ally and has always been there I simply needed to close my eyes, listen closely, feel his healing power and allow him to guide me in my recovery. Once I became one with the Lord I knew nothing would be impossible.
I have subsequently been transferred to a rehabilitation center and each day I close my eyes and call on the Lord to give me the strength to move forward in my rehab to get stronger each day. I visualize that he is wrapping me in a bright white light and that his healing hand is touching my soul, giving me the belief that I have it within me to overcome the physical issues before me that I am able sit up, stand up and walk. As each day goes by I have seen myself gaining strength. I am able to pull myself up, I am able stand I am able to walk.
I am still searching for what my ultimate purpose is. What my “gift” is. Why have I been given this next life. Who knows maybe it as simple as sharing my story of faith and belief to help others find theirs. Whatever it may be I do believe now that in this next life I have been blessed with the Lord is guiding me and with the Lord by my side nothing is impossible.
You think your self doubt protects you, shields you from the unknown, the possibilities of failure. You believe your self doubt has served you well. You do not call it self doubt you call it practical and smart decision making. But deep down you realize that your self doubt has limited your potential. Your life can best be described as humdrum, you are paralyzed to step out of the box and seize the opportunities presented to you for fear of failure There is a part of you that craves more but your self doubt or as you would say your smart and practical decision making has convinced you to accept the status quo. After all you tell yourself if you march to the beat of the drummer and don’t rock the boat everything will be fine. You no longer grow and growth is paramount to a person’s long term happiness in themselves. Fortunately you are not bound by self doubt you can overcome it. The first step is taking a step back and admitting that you have it. Nothing can be overcome unless you believe it is there in the first place. Once you have acknowledged self doubt you define yourself in the positive. Defining yourself in a positive light rather that relying on the opinions of others will help you build self worth. Having a healthy self worth means you look inward not outward for validation never having to question if others think you can accomplish something but knowing you can accomplish it. Embrace the opportunities presented to you with the full knowledge that you may fail. Accept that failure is but a building block of success providing you with valuable lessons. Finally build on your small successes, drink them in no matter how small they may be, as they will help your self confidence evolve. Self confidence is like the proverbial snowball rolling down hill, except your self confidence will be headed the other way, the more you achieve now the greater it becomes later. Once you have decided to step out of the box you are currently in and grab hold of your future follow these steps to cast away your self doubt and to unleash the potential that lives within you.
Self doubt, the fear of the unknown, too often it paralyses us from moving forward. We forsake our dreams afraid to take the path of the unknown. We prefer instead to travel the known path frequented by the many, the path of least resistance. That path may offer security but rarely does it offer the possibilities our soul strives for. We should not fear the ramifications of traveling the unknown road. We should fear the lost possibilities for traveling only the known one. For one who favors the path of the unknown in favor of of the known will forever be a prisoner of society’s definition of who and what they are and never shall they achieve their dreams.