The computerized voice boomed crystal clear over the speakers,
this is the uptown Number 2 train 42nd street, next stop 72nd street. Stand clear of the closing doors.
Its clarity fracturing another legend of old New York City the indecipherable voice of the NYC subway conductor.
On most nights my commute is like one of those Beats headphone commercials, the ones where the athlete put on the headphones and is able to shut out everything in the world around them. I just want to close my eyes, turn up the music and pretend I am anywhere but where I am at that moment. But this Friday evening as I stood in my favorite spot, front of the car back against the forward facing door, I decided to pass my time by observing the commuters on tonight’s uptown number 2 train. One of the great things about this spot is that it affords me a vantage point to take in the entire car and all of its occupants. Tonight’s crowd included the usual suspects. There were the business men in their expensive suits boasting to each other about the big deal they just closed or bitching about the big deal that got away. Never their fault but the fault of some co-worker’s incompetence, or at least that how they were telling it. There was the blue-collar crowd fresh off another exhausting 12 hour shift. Happy to be going home yet too tired to show it. And of course there were the millennials. Happily texting on their smart phones, joking and laughing and talking about what they got into last night and what they planned to get into tonight. Seemingly they had not a care in the world, but probably they were in need of more therapy than anyone else on the train, and in New York everyone needs some therapy. All in all I thought to myself just your usual Friday night crowd on the uptown number 2 train. But then I spied the couple sitting in the middle of the car. She had long hair straight hair with several colors to it and was dressed in an ankle length tie dye skirt and a tan tee-shirt with sunflowers on it. Her wrist was adorned with several bracelets that seemed to go halfway up her arm. She appeared to be in her mid-40s and upon closer inspection it was evident to who ever bothered to look she was quite striking. He was sporting a scruffy looking beard and wearing glasses, blue jeans and a long sleeve pull over shirt. His attire was not nearly as eccentric a look as hers except for his straight out of the 80s canvas Pro Keds, high tops and bright red. Despite what her hippy look and his red high top Keds might have inferred about them they were engrossed not in some counter-culture discussion but the New York Times crossword puzzle. They sat as close as you could get to each other, her leg was draped over his. They argued, they laughed and they got excited when they figured out a particular hard clue. They constantly looked directly into each other eyes and smiled. The look in their eyes gave away what should have been painfully obvious to me by that point, they were very much in love and likely had been so for a very long time. I thought to myself this couple was making their very own Beats commercial. Nothing around them mattered, the only sound they heard were each other’s voices Their world consisted of each other and nothing else and it was clear that was alright with them. When their stop came he folded up the paper and said to her, this is us. They gave each other a quick kiss and instinctively grabbed for each other hand as they ambled off the train. Their interaction with each other brought a smile to my face. One that was much-needed after a long week at work and the desire to reaffirm my fragile belief these days in the concept of love.
The computerized voice boomed crystal clear over the speakers,
this is the uptown number 2 train 72nd street, next stop 96th street. Stand clear of the closing doors.
The day we first kissed will always be etched in my memory. I can’t describe it but I know it wasn’t like any kiss I had ever had before. It was as if our souls were connected when our lips met. I had known for awhile that you were different. The feeling that I got when I looked at you was unlike any I had before. Your aura seemed to follow me it seemed to be present even when you weren’t around. I chalked it up to nothing more then having a high school like crush on you. But it was clearly something more. The moment i kissed you that much was apparent. There are those that say there is no such thing as soulmates. There are those who say there is but you can spend your whole life looking and never find them. In you I believe…no I know I found mine. A little bit of you was transferred to me with that first kiss so no matter how far apart we are we’re always with each other. With that first kiss I gave you my heart and you gave me yours and years later we still hold each other’s keys. Never to far away from each other to open the other’s heart just to say I love you. A soulmate found, a love affair began, a first kiss that sealed the deal.
Thank you for walking away
Thank you for not giving us a chance
I was fooled by all the times you said I love you
I committed my heart to you
I was ready to spend my life with you and when you left it hurt.
But looking back at it I see you were just looking to waste time. You were just looking for a soft landing spot. Your past relationship was a failure and you wanted to feel good about yourself and I was there. You never really loved me and I would have cheated myself if I had settled for you. You see I’m a catch maybe you couldn’t see that but trust me others do. I’m not saying that to brag I’m saying it because it’s true. Am I perfect? Far from it I will make my share of mistakes. But I will always be there for the one I love. I will respect her and treat her like a queen and the woman I do commit my heart to will understand that and be willing to work through the tough times just as I will be willing to overlook her imperfections and work to make us work. Because a relationship is seldom two perfect people finding each other it’s two imperfect people willing to work together to make it work because of how they feel about each other. You’ll find someone and you’ll fool them until you can’t. I guess deep down you’ll never be truly happy because you don’t really know how to love. Anyway I wish you luck and thank you again.
Each day I am with you my life is little more enriched, brighten by just knowing you are my partner, My soul burns so bright with the knowledge that we are together and you are the woman who I wake up to everyday. That feeling comes from the aura that you give off, the good person that you are inside and out. I will never let anything happen to you, I will always try to be there to help carry your load when you want me to, when you need me to. No judgments, no preconceived thoughts, just me here for you because I love you
Others may believe that we are not meant to be they may fill your head with such nonsense. Others may try to take my place in your heart but they will never have as big a place in their heart for you as I have in mine. You may look at the rocky times we’ve gone through and ask is all worth it to try again. But I see in your eyes, they betray you, in those eyes I see the love that still burns with-in your heart. I believe deep down you know what I know.
That a love like ours is special.
That a passion like ours is special
That we were meant to be together
That we are stronger as us than as you and I
That together there is nothing we can’t overcome
It’s been a long business trip and I cannot wait to be home again. Can’t wait until we are together again. Each sunrise I wake I reach for you but the sad truth is the space beside me is empty.
I miss holding you in my arms at night.
I miss seeing your beautiful eyes.
I miss the smile on your face.
I’ll be home soon because home is where I belong. Home is you and I. Home is us and I miss us
Today as with many of the past few days I know you have been feeling overwhelmed. You put so much on your shoulders, you blame yourself for so much. I see all this and there seems to be so little I can do to help. It is frustrating for me as I wish I could simply take you in my arms and make everything better for you but sadly life is not that easy. We each have to deal with our issues in our own way. However, for all of us it is easier dealing with our issues when we know that there is someone who loves us, there to pick us up when we fall, lean on when we cry, stand at a distance when we need space yet be ready to be there when you are ready for them to be. I want you to know that I am that person. Because while I know that it can not solve everything my love for you will always be there whenever you need it.