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I Shoulder On.

My mind races with worry and uncertainty, yet my face presents a smile for the world to see. So many to talk to, yet I feel no one hears me. So many to walk with, yet I feel I am on the journey alone. I am only human, and I have human fears and worries; the weight of it all threatens to crush my spirit. But despite all this, I continue to move forward with the belief that the Lord is guiding, and watching over me. That He sees my fears and worries, but he knows that in my heart I do not doubt him and that when the time is right, He will see fit to rain down bountiful blessings upon me and remove all my fears and worries, and for that, I will be eternally grateful to Him. 

The Song of the Birds

The last few mornings, I woke up at the ridiculous hour of 5:00 am. Lying in my bed, attempting to drift back off to the peaceful bliss of sleep for a few more hours, I could not help but notice the sound of birds chirping outside my window. I thought to myself, I never hear these birds any other time of the day, but every morning rain or shine as the Sun makes its appearance in the morning sky, these birds begin their song like clockwork. Their song is but one of the many things all around us that despite a worldwide pandemic, racial unrest, and an economy that has seen tens of millions lose their jobs, we take for granted. Their song is a message that despite all the chaos in the world today, the Sun still rises in the east, the Earth still circles the Sun, and the birds still sing. Being single with a pre-existing heart condition, I often find myself physically alone as well as alone in my thoughts these days, and despite being blessed in so many ways that it is hard to quantify, there are times I find myself questioning why. Why have I never been able to find that special someone to spend my life with? Why have I not been blessed with the gift of a child? Why do I have this heart condition? Have I done something so wrong in my life that I’m being punished? I know I have not lived a perfect life. I know I have sinned, but I am only human, and in the grand scheme of things, I have lived a good life, tried to do what is right, and help others where I could. So why? But as I laid there this morning alone in my thoughts, I listened to the bird’s song and realized that despite everything, their song was a blessing, their song told me that the Lord had breathed life into my nostrils so that I may see another day and hear their song. While my life may not have gone according to some abstract blueprint I put together in my mind, I was blessed to wake each morning and hear the song of the birds. A song that, for the first time, I could hear. A song that reminded me of all that I am blessed to have, things that that I sometimes take for granted. A song that reminded me that the Lord is always with me, walking beside me, guiding me, protecting me, and with that thought, I smiled and drifted back to sleep to the song of the birds.

Nothing Compares to U Lord

It’s been 12 months and three days

Since I found my way back to U

I used to sin every night and party all day

Without you I could travel the less righteous road

I could care only about myself

I could worship the dollar while in a fancy suit

But nothing

I said

Nothing can save my spirit

Nothing can save my soul,

Nothing can save my heart

Nothing could give me the happiness you could

Cause nothing compares

Nothing compares to U

I was so lost without you in my life

Like a bird without a song

Nothing could stop the tears from falling

Tell me Lord where did I go wrong

I could grab for every dollar I see

I could have every comfort money could buy

But they’d never give me the happiness of knowing U

I went to the doctor guess what he told me

Guess what he told me

He said boy even with all the money in the world there’s nothing we can do for you

but he’s a fool

Cause there’s nothing U can’t do

Cause nothing compares to U

You saved me

You breathed life back into me

I know that following you won’t always easy

I must be willing to sacrifice

I must be willing to forgive

I must be willing to embrace my enemies

I must be willing to serve the poor

I know it will be hard because I know I’m flawed

I know I am not perfect

Yet you still love me

So I’m going to give it my best

‘Cause nothing compares to the love you rain down on me

Cause nothing compares to the blessings you bestow upon me

Cause nothing compares

Nothing compare to U Lord

Dinner for the week

Last Sunday, I spent a good part of my morning and afternoon cooking for the week. Italian meatloaf (really turkey loaf), Cornish game hens, collard greens, black bean soup, and spaghetti with mussels. Rewind almost a year ago, and I was recovering from a cardiac arrest. Those who were there have told me the Doctors on the scene worked to bring me back longer than they should; the priest who stopped in to see me each day in the ICU called me miracle man. My recovery was quicker than was expected. My physical rehabilitation progressed nicely. Three months after the event, I went home from the rehab center and returned to work shortly after. A miracle? Maybe but more likely just another day for the Lord Almighty, who chose to reach down and touch me and say, not yet, my son, there is still work for you to do on this Earth. Now I won’t lie; it hasn’t been smooth sailing since the event some days are better than others there are bumps along the road health-wise. Despite that, every day, I wake and can see and smell the wonderful world around me and know of all the love my family and friends have for me, a love so apparent during my recovery and no doubt a significant factor in it. For this, I am truly blessed, blessed that the hand of the Lord has touched me and given me this second chance at life. It allowed me to spend a Sunday cooking for the week because despite what bumps maybe along the way, in my mind, I know He stands over me and will allow me to wake another day, so I might as well have something to eat on those days. I do not know what His ultimate plan is for me, but I know he has touched me, and he is guiding me, and I am eternally thankful for that.

Nothing is impossible in HIS world

Watching Joel Osteen this morning, and the Lord must be using him to preach right at me and my current situation this morning. He is preaching that we should never laugh in disbelief at what God puts in front of us, even if it seems impossible. For when you laugh, God will simply say welcome my child to my world.
Nothing is impossible in HIS world.
It may not happen right away; there may be obstacles placed in your way. This is never going to happen, you may think. But that is only because, as humans, we can not always see the larger picture but rest assured, HE does. We must keep the faith, continue to praise the Lord, continue to push through the obstacles, and when He blesses you with that which you thought was impossible. As Olsteen called it, a “whoever thought miracle.” You won’t be laughing in disbelief any longer; you will be laughing in amazement.
Nothing is impossible in HIS world.
I have congestive heart failure, and on June 7th, I had a cardiac event. My heart stopped, doctors told my sister things don’t look so good. But God looked down on me and said, son, it is yet your time, and HE breathed the gift of life back into my body. A week later, the hospital minister would come into my room and, with a huge laugh, say, miracle man, I can’t believe you are up and talking to me after what you looked like last week. He was laughing in amazement.
Nothing is impossible in HIS world.
My cardiologist tells me the medicine he prescribes for me and the diet he says I should follow will help me maintain my health. But you can’t just reverse congestive heart failure. I laughed in disbelief at that. Sure I will take my medicine and follow my diet, but while he may prescribe medications and suggest diets to maintain my health, it is only HE who can truly heal me, and then we will all be laughing in amazement.
Nothing is impossible in HIS world.
You see, I have faith that the Lord has not brought me to this point along the spiritual journey to drop me off on the side of the road. I have faith that while I may not see it, HE knows the big picture. HE sees what he has in store for me. I have faith that as Osteen preached this morning, HE is positioning me to do something positive. I will continue to pray to and praise him, and you should too. No matter what your current situation may be—no matter what obstacles may appear to be in your path. Keep the faith, and soon you will be laughing in amazement.
Nothing is impossible in HIS world.

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You may try, I may waiver, but you shall not break the bond between myself and the Lord

I have been blessed in my lifetime. From the moment I was born, the Lord has watched over me, guided me, and protected me. The last year has been challenging for me health-wise, but thanks to the grace of the Lord, I have been granted the strength to face the recovery process head-on. Despite all my blessings, there have been times when I feel unhappy and alone. When this feeling is creeping into my soul, I clear my mind of all things and talk to the Lord. It is during these moments of reflection that I lean on my faith. Evil will look for the smallest of openings to pounce on you. Evil knows that we are only human, and no matter how deep our faith may appear to be, our spirituality can be stripped from us. Evil will endeavor to grow a moment of unhappiness into a lifetime of bitterness and doubt about the Lord’s love for us. But as I talk to the Lord, I give him praise and thanks for all he has blessed me with. I pray that he will give me the courage to reject the thoughts evil is attempting to poison my mind with. I open up my heart and allow the Lord to touch my soul and guide me away from the darkness and back toward the light. It is then I can feel the power of the Lord. I can hear Him say to me, my child, I know you are not perfect, I know you may have moments of doubt, but I also know where your heart and soul genuinely reside, you have shown this to the world through your praise of me. You are now and will forever be my child, and I love you unconditionally. I will guide you. I will protect you. I will help you strengthen your faith so that no one will be able to break the bond between us.