I love you.
We must have said those three little words to each other a thousand times and I won’t speak for you but those words when spoken by you to me are so powerful they awaken my deepest emotions.
I’ve often wondered how is it that the sound of three little words can bring me so much happiness? Then it hit me, it’s when I hear you say them I know you mean it.
When I look back at past relationships I realize that when others said I love you they really didn’t mean it? When they said those words, it was the sound of their voice, nothing more nothing less. It was just a sound, a vibration that broadcast itself as a mechanical wave of pressure and displacement through air. Now that’s not romantic and it’s certainly not something I should have given my heart away to.
But with you I love you is not just the utterance of words it’s your actions that bring those words to life. Like when we trade smiles across a room. When you instinctively grab for my hand in a crowd. That look in your eye when you wake up beside me each morning; Small unconscious actions that likely go unnoticed to everyone else but me. Actions that say I love you without any words, no sound passing through the air. I hope my actions say the same to you because there is no doubt in my heart that I love you
Michael Jackson famously asked in one of his songs do you remember? I wonder do you remember the night we first met? It was the end of the year office party and it was crowded as usual. Everyone looked forward to the year-end party, it was the perfect excuse to let off a little steam after another year of 12-hour workdays and never-ending deadlines. Plus, the year-end party was when the company usually announced what our bonuses were going to be and this being a good year financially all our spirits were high with anticipation that our bonuses would be as well. All around the room the usual party small talk, office gossip, laughing and smiling was going on and in a corner with several others there you were.
I knew who you were, I had seen you around, but I didn’t know you. I had been taken with your beauty for a while now. But it wasn’t just your beauty that drew me to you, your reputation as being one of the brightest of the bright and a fighter who was unafraid to think big and push the company to do the same was sexy as hell to me. What was a little confusing tough was just how modest you appeared to be. I mean let’s be real beautiful people know they’re beautiful. smart people know they’re smart and you’re both, but it really did seem like didn’t know it
You couldn’t have been more than twenty feet away from me, but it may as well have been twenty miles. I’ll admit it, despite appearing to be modest you kind of intimidated me. Then you looked across the room right at me and I could swear you smiled, not a huge smile just a quick little one as if you meant only for me to notice it. As the night went on I couldn’t get that little smile out of my head. I looked around the room and found you, surprising all alone, here’s my chance I thought. I summoned all my courage and headed over to introduce myself to you. Be cool, be confident, be self-assured I said to myself. I’m no slouch I’m a pretty good catch myself, you couldn’t just brush me off. Could you? So, it was with an air of confidence that I approached you, but let’s be real that was just on the outside on the inside I was shaking like a child on their first day of preschool after saying goodbye to their mother. The walk over to you seemed to take forever but as I got near you suddenly turned in my direction and there it was again, the little smile from earlier that evening. Before I could say a word, you said hello and our eyes met. That first look into your eyes settled my nerves, it was like I had known you all my life.
We spend the rest of the evening talking and laughing and every so often you would look directly in my eyes and flash that little smile and I knew for sure now that little smile was meant only for me. My whole life I had been looking for someone like you, someone who I would know immediately was my soulmate and that evening I found that person in you.
They say life is a series of random happenstances if you take one step to the left instead of the right you could set off a series of events that change the course of your life. But when it comes to you I suspect there was more than happenstance at play. With you I believe it was destiny.
Because it was on the day that I met you I turned left when I always turned right and there you were. I knew immediately that everything up until that moment was preparing me for you. Every step I had ever taken was leading me to you. I had unknowingly been walking a path toward you my whole life.
No one ever has and no one ever will make me feel the way you did when you first:
Smiled at me
Made me laugh
Held my hand
Said I love you
As crazy as it sounds I know that when I turned left when I always turned right it wasn’t happenstance it was destiny.
They say the Law of Attraction uses the power of the mind to translate whatever is in our thoughts and materialize them into reality. If that’s true, then you and I are the result of that law.
For the longest time I dreamed about finding someone with not only your physical beauty but also the quality that truly captures my heart and mind your brilliant intellect. It was obvious from the start that I had been dreaming about you all along.
Dreaming that once I found you we would begin a relationship so passionate everyone around us would feel the heat it generates. And they do!
Dreaming that we would work together to conquer any obstacles in the way of our happiness. And we do!
Dreaming that we would connect on such a level all we needed to do was look at each other and know what the other was thinking. And we do!
I believed in you before I even knew you, you are everything I ever dreamed about. So, you know what? This law of attraction thing must be real, because here you are.
I’ve never been a morning person and this morning was no different. Groggy eyed I stared into the mirror as I brushed my teeth when something strange happened, the reflection in the mirror appeared to be talking to me.
Have you ever regretted falling in love? Wished you never met her?
I rubbed my eyes and thought okay I didn’t have anything to drink last night and I know I’m tired but this can’t possibly be happening. Then the reflection asked again.
Have you ever regretted falling in love?
Alright I’ll play along, I mean if nothing else this will be a good story to tell my therapist. So, I looked in the mirror and said no not at all. Why not? The reflection asked I mean you were really hurt, you’re in therapy, that last relationship really took a toll on you. Yes, it did I replied I was hurt and I’m not ashamed of being in therapy it’s been really good for me actually. But the moment didn’t break me. Didn’t it? Asked the reflection. No It didn’t I said because I’ve come to realize that moment is but one moment along a longer journey I am on, and I will not be deterred by just one moment. I will continue my journey unafraid of what lies ahead, confident that one day it will lead me to my true love. So, I say again no I have never regretted falling in love. With that the reflection said great I was just checking to make sure you still believed in love because someone out there believes in it too and one day you’re going to find each other. Oh and by the way I’d keep this conversation between you and me, tell your therapist and they just might think you’re losing it.
I’ve been hurt. But I must admit when I met you I was captivated by both your beauty and your mind. Even so I was afraid to give my heart to someone again and you told me you understood my trepidation. But you also said I shouldn’t give up on love and that you would be there for me when I was ready to try again. It was scary but I knew deep down that you were one I couldn’t let get away so I took a chance and gave you my heart and every day since then you’ve shown me that I made the right decision
I love the way we talk
I love the way we listen to each other
I love that we never judge one another
I love that when we disagree we still respect each other
I love how for no reason at all we’ll complement each other
I love how when one of us is down the other one carries the load no questions asked
I love how committed we are to each other
I love how we work together to get through our rough patches
Most importantly I love you. I’ve given you the keys to my heart and I’m lucky I didn’t give up on love or else we would never have been, and my heart would never have known what true love really was.
We’ve hit a few bumps in the road lately haven’t we? People are talking, you don’t have to pretend I know you’ve heard it, because I’ve heard it to. It seems people are relishing our troubles.
I knew it.
It was only a matter of time.
They were never meant to be together.
That’s just some of the things they’re saying.
They say that there are others out there who would be better for us. But I know, and I suspect you do as well that no one could ever have as big a place in their heart as we do for each other.
They tell us to focus on the rocky times and ask ourselves is it all worth it. But I see in your eyes, they betray you, and I suspect you see it mine as well the love that still burns in our hearts for each other.
They tell us these things I believe, and I suspect you do as well because deep down they are jealous of what we have.
A passion for each other that is truly uncontrollable.
A love for each other that is truly special
A mental connection so powerful that words are not required to express our feelings for one another
We were meant to be together
We are stronger as us than as you and me
So, let them talk, because I know, and I suspect you do as well that together there is nothing we can’t overcome.