Category Archives: Love Lost

when you realize they’re not the one

The Heart Knows No Time

The heart knows no concept of time, for the heart time is nothing more than a meaningless concept, a man-made measure. It is why the heart of someone who has known love but for a brief period can be broken just as easily and hurt just as much as that of someone who has loved for a long period of time.  The heart never asks how long it has been? The heart only knows that it feels the way it does when that special someone walks in the room, smiles at you, holds your hand, looks into your eyes and says they love you.  It does not matter to the heart if they have known that person for 2 months, 2 years or 2 decades it only knows that person makes it feel a way no one else does.  Others may ask how you could be so hurt after all you only were only with them but for a second and your brain may struggle with that question, but the heart knows.  The time your heart needs to heal from the loss of that special person does not equate like some mathematical equation to the amount of time you were with them.  Yes, you will get stronger as the days go by and yes you will learn to let go. You will come to a point where you will allow yourself to look back and smile at all the good times you shared without being sad that they are no more.  You will embrace the truth, that you will never truly forget them because the heart truly never forgets.  But your heart will heal in its own time and then and only then will you be able to open it up to love again.

Memories of Us

It’s been a minute hasn’t it been, but there you were in my dreams again tip toeing into my subconscious when I thought I had forgotten all about you.  I’m not going to lie seeing you again brought a smile to my face,  all the good memories we created together flooding my mind.  It’s funny now to think there was a time that the thought of you and I, what we were and how that is no more made me sad. But that time has passed, I’m so much stronger now. Aware now of all the love that had always been afforded me by so many.  To finally understand that the love of the Lord is stronger than any love I could ever desire.  I’ve learned to embrace myself, to love myself. So yes now the memory of the happy times between us, and there were some damn good times, makes me smile for I accept now they were an essential part of the journey I’ve been on to being the person I am today.  Goodbye for now it was nice seeing you again and I hope you have found the happiness that you were a part of in me finding mine. 

Prayer and Meditation. Medicine for the Mind, Body and soul

I have recently taken to a form of prayer and mediation. I find a quiet place, sit up straight and plant my feet firmly so that the positive energy of the world flows up through the ground and through my body.  I endeavor to clear my mind of all distractions and close my eyes. I visualize myself relaxed and smiling as the hand of the Lord touches and begins to heal me. Heal me physically, heal me mentally and heal me spiritually. Then I pray these words

Heavenly Father I ask that you lay your healing hands upon my heart so that it is made stronger and able to carry the blood of life that you have blessed us with through out my entire body. I ask this Heavenly Fatger so that I may live a long life to shout your praise to all who will hear me.  I ask this Heavenly Father so that through the special gifts you have bestowed upon me I can share them with others so that they too can see your greatness and be motivated and inspired to help others reach for the stars. I ask this so that I can be an example to never give up your faith and trust in you even when it appears things are not going as well as they would like in the moment.  I ask this Heavenly Father so that I may awake each day blessed with the senses you have so blessed me with in order to take in and appreciate the beauty and wonders of this magnificent world you have created for us. I ask this Heavenly Father so that I may continue to enjoy the fellowship and love of family, friends and even strangers who you have so seen fit to place in my path as I travel this spiritual journey. I ask this Heavenly Father because in my faith I know that while man can help me to maintain my health, my mind and my spirituality only you who can truly heal my mind, body and soul.  I ask all of this in your name Heavenly Father.  Amen

Then I open my eyes pause for a moment to allow the energy of the Lord to travel through my body.  After a brief moment of silence and reflection with the energy of the Lord flowing through me I close my eyes again and say the following: “The Lord is healing me  I am getting stronger every day.” I repeat this for 5, 10, 15 minutes whatever I am most comfortable with that day.   When I am done I remain sitting quietly letting the power of the power of the Lord flow throughout my body.  Finally I stand up and go about my day relaxed, renews and emboldened by the knowledge that I am in God’s world and in his world nothing is impossible.

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A mental connection

So you’re with him now. Well I wish you happiness and hope you found what you were looking for. But even you have to admit a love like the one we shared is not so easily forgotten. Even after we walked away from each other a little bit of me remains with you, just like a little bit of you has remained with me. So I wonder, on those nights you lay awake beside him do you hear it? Do you hear my voice saying I love you. We might not be together physically and maybe that’s for the best but we will always share a mental connection no matter who we’re with. Because while we may not have worked out a love like ours will never be broken. As Mr. Spock once said it is not logical but it often times true.

Thank you for walking away

Thank you for walking away
Thank you for not giving us a chance
I was fooled by all the times you said I love you
I committed my heart to you
I was ready to spend my life with you and when you left it hurt.
But looking back at it I see you were just looking to waste time. You were just looking for a soft landing spot. Your past relationship was a failure and you wanted to feel good about yourself and I was there. You never really loved me and I would have cheated myself if I had settled for you. You see I’m a catch maybe you couldn’t see that but trust me others do. I’m not saying that to brag I’m saying it because it’s true. Am I perfect? Far from it I will make my share of mistakes. But I will always be there for the one I love. I will respect her and treat her like a queen and the woman I do commit my heart to will understand that and be willing to work through the tough times just as I will be willing to overlook her imperfections and work to make us work. Because a relationship is seldom two perfect people finding each other it’s two imperfect people willing to work together to make it work because of how they feel about each other. You’ll find someone and you’ll fool them until you can’t. I guess deep down you’ll never be truly happy because you don’t really know how to love. Anyway I wish you luck and thank you again.

The winds are carrying you away from me

The winds are carrying you away from me. As a man I take full responsibility for

Not hearing your voice
Not being responsive to your needs
Not understanding your concerns

But trust me when I say it’s not because of faded feelings, or desire for you. It’s not because I don’t value our relationship.  In fact I love and value you and the concept of us more now than I ever have. My love for you has never stopped growing getting stronger each day. Now the thought of losing you has me free falling with no parachute. Desperately clinging to the hope

That you will accept my apology
That you will believe in me again
That you will believe in us again
That you will understand how much I love you.
That you will let me hold you in my arms once again.

My love for you burns as brightly as it ever has and there is nothing I would not do to make your life as fulfilling as possible. You are my soul mate and I hope the winds bring your heart back to mine.

Lost love

They say time heals all wounds, but time apart from you only grows more painful everyday

I long to hear your voice
see your smile
Hold you in my arms
Caress your skin
Kiss your lips
Hold your body next to mine

Given one more chance I know I would make it right. Be the partner you so deserves, be the man you desire. If you choose to walk away my heart would be lost forever