Author Archives: Carl A. Cooke

Because of You

Because of you I want to be the man that

Opens your door.
Cooks your dinner.
Gives you flowers just because.

Because of you I want to be the man that

Takes the time to truly understand you.
Supports and encourages you.
Fulfills your wants and desires.

Because of you I want to be the man that

Is a strong shoulder for you to lean on.
Is a sounding board for you to vent to.

Because of you I want to be the man that

Never stop telling you I love with my words.
Never stop showing you I love her with my actions.

Because of you I want to be the man that

With every kiss leave you lost in the moment of passion so powerful it says I will always love you and I will never leave your side.

Because of you I want to be that man.Be the man

Thank You For Walking Away

As I look back now I guess I owe you an apology. An apology for being so mad when you turned and walked away from us. What I really should have been was thankful.

Confused? Don’t be, it simple really.

You see I committed my heart to you, assumed you really meant it when you said you loved me, and that we would always be together. That day you left I can’t lie it hurt, hurt like hell. Would I be wrong to say you never really loved me? Maybe, I don’t know, I guess in your own way you thought you did. But the truth for me is that I would have been cheating myself if I had settled for you.

Why?

Well it’s been some time since that day you walked away, and I have had time to reflect and heal and out of that came this realization; I’m a catch. Now maybe you couldn’t see it but trust me when I tell you others do.

You see I recognize now that I’m not that perfect man you were looking for, if he even exists. But what I am is a man who will always be there for the one I love.  A man who will always respect and treat my woman like a queen and the woman that I have committed my heart to now appreciates that and loves me for who I am. She is accepting of me for me, imperfections and all, just as I am of her. We do this because we realize that a relationship is seldom two perfect people finding each other, it’s two imperfect people finding each other and are willing to work together to make each other better. I suspect one day you’ll find someone new and fool them until you can’t. But I wish you only happiness, like everyone you deserve to be happy. Sadly, though I suspect you’ll never find that happiness until you learn what true love is, hopefully one day you will. In the meantime good luck and thank you again for walking away.

How Could We Not See It Coming

The year is 2040 and in retrospect I wonder why we were all surprised at the fall of America. How could we have been? It had been in the making for the last 25 years.

As a people we turned a blind eye to our leader’s corruption, so there was no one to turn to when we inevitable became victims of that corruption.

As a people we let our leaders lie to us about any and everything, so there was no one to trust when we inevitable became victims of those lies.

As a people we cheered when our leader’s undermined our worldwide alliances claiming to put America first, big and bad we thoughtwe were, so there was no one willing to help us when we were in trouble.

As a people we embraced our leader’s rejection of the constitution, a document that had served us well for over 200 years, so there should have been no surprised when our government inevitably collapsed.

In retrospect how could we not have seen it coming.

I May Not Get There With You

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I may not get there with you

Just seven of the four thousand one hundred and seventy-one words in Martin Luther King’s Jr. I’ve Been to the Mountaintop speech. That speech would be the last one he ever delivered as he was assassinated the very next day at the young age of 39. There are so many speeches and quotes uttered by Dr. King that have personally motivated and inspired me to be a better person. But those seven words above all others have always had a special meaning to me.

Dr.King delivered those words in a speech to support a strike by 1,300 sanitation workers, mostly African-American men, who were protesting the horrendous working conditions, poverty-level wages, and the refusal of the city to recognize their union, sadly issues that are still prevalent today. With those seven words Dr. King told the world he was aware his own life may very well be cut short because of his crusade to force America to abide by the words on which it was founded.

That all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.

But he was not afraid to die. Not because he embraced death, not because he wanted to die. Because as he said in his own words our lives begin to end when we stay silent about things that matter. So on that night he refused to stay silent, he told everyone in Memphis, Tennessee that night that now was not the time to turn back out of fear. Now was the time to press on down the path of righteousness even if that path was fraught with inherent dangers. That they could not sit quietly in fear an accept the injustices they were being subjected to, it would be unconscionable to do so.

Today we celebrate his birthday and I ponder what humanity could accomplish, what heights we could reach, where we may already be, if each of us had even a fraction of the resolve and courage that Dr.King had to do what was right despite what it may cost us personally.

I may not get there with you – just seven words but seven words that still resonate loudly today

Have you ever had a love that you were so sure was real? What if it wasn’t

You looked at me and asked, had I ever had a love that I was sure was real? What if it wasn’t? What if the other person only said they loved you? How would you know the difference between true love and just words?

I was puzzled but you continued. When love was first conceived you said it was pure, it never gave up, never lost faith, was always hopeful and endured through every circumstance. It was that pure love that first bonded together couples. But over time people corrupted it, used it for their own gains and selfish purposes. They told others they loved them when in fact they never did. Those who have been hurt and allowed that experience to remain with them will never be free to experience true love again.  But it has been said that true love will return to those who open their hearts to it and there are those of us who have spent our entire lives looking for it. Then you took my hand and said when I first saw you I knew immediately. Knew what I asked? That you were the one you said. I was still bitter and guarded from the last one, afraid to truly commit, but you waited patiently. You said you did so because you believe that the search for true love was over for both of us.

I looked at you and asked what are you trying to tell me that I can protect my heart from being hurt again? No, you said with a smile when I’m ready to commit my heart to you I won’t have to.

You used to be right there next to me

You used to be right there next to me.

We would get in the car on a summer day, top down and drive to nowhere, no destination in mind. At each red light I would glance over at you and you would always be smiling back at me. You had a way of tilting your head ever so slightly to the right when you smiled at me. I doubt you even realized you were doing it. But I noticed that you only did it when you smiled at me no one else and that’s how I knew it was a smile meant only for me, no one else

You used to be right there next to me.

Down the street we would walk, no destination in mind. Happy as could be your hand in mine. We laughed at each other’s corny jokes and talked for what seemed like hours. Every chance I got I glanced at you and were captured by your eyes. Your eyes, they always had a way of lighting up when you looked at me. I would laugh and tell you that you weren’t playing fair and you would always say you didn’t know what I was talking about. Maybe you didn’t, maybe that’s because your eyes only lit up when you looked at me and that’s how I knew it was a look meant for me, no one else.

Now you’re not there next to me anymore.

The smile and the look meant for me, no one else is gone. I wonder if they belong to someone else. I wonder if you even know that you’re giving him a smile and a look that tells him you love him and no else.

You used to be right there next to me.

Never Having To Ask

You know what I love about us? It’s never having to ask if you love me.  Now that’s true love.  With others I had to ask and while they would say of course I do. Did they really? Maybe they thought they did, but it wasn’t true love. It wasn’t that love you search your whole life for and you’re lucky if you find it.

With you I never had to ask if you would be there always. With others I had to. You know why?  Because I couldn’t really be sure.  And when a little rain fell you know what?  They weren’t.

I know what we have without having to ask because every minute of every day your actions make it crystal clear, tomorrow and every tomorrow after that rain or shine, good or bad when I wake your face will be the first one I see.

What about those who have to ask? I would say they shouldn’t.  They should simply enjoy the moment. But they should also understand that the person they’re with at that moment is only that, a person they’re with at that moment, nothing more nothing less. But that’s cool, everyone can’t have what we have.  True love is not meant to be found in every relationship, but every relationship can bring happiness. I Just hope they treat each relationship in their heart and in their mind accordingly and at the end of the day they’ll be alright   Who knows maybe they’ll get lucky enough to find what we have. 

never ask