Mom? Dad? Where am I? Have I crossed over?

No son you haven’t “crossed over” it’s not your time yet.  And who talks like that crossed over? Anyway come and sit with us.  We know the last several months have been difficult for you health wise and we thought now would be a good time to pay you a visit.

Well it’s a little unusual to say the least but you’re right about that the last few months they have trying with one thing after another with my health.  Sometimes I say to myself why even try and take care of myself at the end of the day does it really matter.  I mean if the big man wants me to suffer I’m more or less powerless to stop it.

Is that what you think?

That’s what I know I mean I pray to him I ask him to heal me I’ve tried to live my life the correct way yet here I am dealing with this.  It’s like he has forsaken me.

So you believe that if you simply ask for good health he’ll look at you and boom like that you’re healed? Interesting? Would make for a kind of crowded Earth after a while but I can understand how you may feel forsaken.  You know your mother and I have always believed you to be special.  Someone born with the unique talents to accomplish whatever you set your mind to.  The empathy to treat others with love and respect and not expect anything in return. The intelligence to see a problem and reason out the best solution. So it is surprising that you do not see the obvious.

Which is?

That the Lord will help you by showing you the way, guiding you to right path. But you must be willing to walk the road. There are no easy fixes.  If you believe in him he will believe in you, he will show you the way. But showing you is not the same as doing for you.  Sometimes we forget that.

So you’re saying this is a test of my faith?

No, what you will soon come to understand son is he does not crave your belief.  If he did he would not have given you free will.  What he does desire is that you live your life in accordance with the principles he has laid out.  That you treat others with the respect and love you desire.  This is especially important in times of darkness.  How you treat others when it appears all things around you are failing is a look inside your soul.  You see it is not a test in your faith of him but a test of yourself.  If you pass it does not matter if you say you believe in him or not because your actions will show that you believe in what is good and pure and that is what he desires for each of us.

I get it, live my life in a righteous way and the Lord will lead me in the direction of good things.  Thankfully I was raised by two beautiful people who instilled in me the righteous way.

Well it is good to see despite some bumps in the road you have chosen to live your life adhering to the principles your father and I set for you.  But what you must remember is that as a living being your definition of “good things” might differ from the definition of good things on a spiritual level.

Whoa that seems like a cop out.  Are you saying that no matter what you do you may find you do not always get the happy ending you search for?

Yes and no.  If you define your happiness as only what you can measure on the plane of existence for which you currently reside than I guess you could say no.

What?

Look at it this way, your mother and I are talking to you now.  This plane of existence is very different than the one in which you normally reside.  Yet the look on your face when you saw us.  The feeling of love that is emanating from your heart and the happiness you feel right now exist but in quite a different way than if we were on your normal plane of existence.  Stay still for a minute, close your eyes, and listen to your heart. Now let’s go back to the very beginning when you first saw us and you asked have you crossed over.  Suppose you had? Would that feeling of happiness and love you have right now cease to exist?

I think I understand. I truly miss you and how you always explained things to me.  How you are able to make me understand things other could not, how you always showed me what is right is wrong. Most importantly no matter how stubborn I was how you never gave up on me.  How you loved me like no other two people could ever love me.

You were our child, special in that you were not born of us but in that we chose you to be our child.  As much as you think we impacted you, watching you grow into the man you are today brought happiness to us as well.  And do not think we do not continue to benefit from that as we continue to watch you.  We even cheat a bit, where permitted, and help you through some rough moments.  The day will come when we all exist together once again as a family but that time is not now.  You have much to accomplish yet and we will be looking on proud parents. But for now we must leave you.

Wait, will I even remember this

Of course I wouldn’t go around broadcasting it, spirituality isn’t what it used to be and some may want to have your head examine so let this be our little secret son and remember this is not goodbye it’s only till next time. We love you.

And I love you Mom and Dad till next time.