Monthly Archives: June 2017

She used to be right there on my right

She used to be right there on my right, my hand resting on the stick shift, her hand resting comfortably on mine. The top down and the warm summer air all around us as we drove for miles with no particular destination in mind. Every red light I would glance over at her and be captured by her smile. She had a way of tilting her head to the right ever so slightly when she smiled at me. It was so slight I doubt she even realized she was doing it. But that was because she only did it when she smiled at me and that’s how I knew it was a smile meant for me, no one else.

She used to be right there on my right, her hand comfortably in mine as we walked down the street. Talking and laughing as we walked for miles with no particular destination in mind. Every chance I got I would glance over at her and be captured by her eyes. Her eyes had a way of lighting up when she looked at me. I would tell her she wasn’t playing fair but she always said she didn’t know what I was talking about. But that was because they only lit up when she looked at me and that’s how I knew it was a look meant for me, no one else.

But she is no longer on my right and her smile, her look, a smile and a look meant for me, no one else is gone. I wonder if they belong to someone else. I wonder if she even knows that she’s giving him a smile and a look that tells him she loves him and no else.

She used to be right there on my right.

I AM NOT HIM

Lately you’ve been distant. I know something is bothering you, I can only guess at what it is because you won’t let me in.

Maybe you’re worried how I’ll react if you talk to me about what it is. Maybe you think that because you feared his reactions.

Maybe you think that if you let me in you’ll be a burden to me, that you’ll be unloading your problems on me.  Maybe you think that because that’s how he made you feel.

Maybe you think I won’t try to understand your problems.  Maybe you think that because he never did.

Maybe you think I just don’t care.  Maybe you think that because he really never did.

But what you should know for sure is very simply this – I am not him. Not today, not tomorrow, not on my worst day. You and I are partners and there will never be anything we cannot talk about.  Nothing we can’t work out together.

There will be times I’m not going to understand what you are going through. But I will always be there to listen.

There will be times I will not agree with you. But I will never judge you.

There will be times I will offer you a shoulder to cry on. But I will never take that to mean you’re weak.

There will never be a time I will not be there for you.

I do these things not because I have too but because you are my best friend, my lover and my partner for life and my love for you is everlasting.

I am not him, not today, not tomorrow, not on my worst day.

Everyday

Everyday I want to remember the connection I felt the very first moment I kissed you.

Everyday I want to hear the sound of your voice, have my breath taken away by your beauty, be captivated by your dazzling smile, and be drawn in by your mesmerizing eyes,

Everyday I want to be able to smile, laugh out loud with and talk to the most intelligent, insightful and unique woman I have ever met.

Everyday I want to lay down to sleep knowing you are right there next to me.

Everyday I want to be able to wake up next to and kiss the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.  The woman who stirs my passion like no other.

Everyday I want of our lives together to be nothing short of the remarkable and passionate love affair it is today.

Everyday I want you to know you are my best friend, my lover, my partner for life, the person I have given the key to my heart.

Everyday I want these things because I love you and want you in my life everyday for the rest of my life.

They tell you can’t – but the truth is you can

They say you can’t do it.
They say you will never reach your goals.
They say you live in the clouds.
They say you will never amount to anything.
They say it so many times that soon you start to think it is the truth.

But the truth is they say it not because it is true, but to keep you in a box. To stop you from reaching for and achieving what they already have.  Your ability to do it, reach your goals, live in the clouds, be someone special depends not on what they want you to think you can do but what you believe is possible.

For many of us it is not easy to step outside of that box they say you belong in. It takes courage, confidence in your abilities, a strong sense of self esteem and a knowledge that stepping out of the box is simply freeing your mind of the chains they wish to keep it locked under and allowing it to soar to the heights it was always meant too.